I'm an older nursing student, 44, about to graduate next year. I'm a good student on full scholarship. Now the hook. I may just be burned out already but I'm having doubts about this profession. For 8 years prior to school I've worked as a CNA and do the same, full time, through school, for an agency. To say I'm skilled in geriatric care would be an understatement. I am also a dual psych major and planned to practice geri-psych. However, I just do not think I can do this any longer. I rarely encounter any happy seniors--ever. In fact, the two steady home clients I have now are both complex physical and psychological cases, with both patients exclaiming hourly that they "want to die". I do my best to keep them comfortable, clean, cared for, even entertained...yet nothing changes and I feel helpless and depressed. I realize that I cannot fix everything. But it scares me to question why medically we are prolonging lives of the elderly who clearly experience little to no joy and express no desire to continue what they perceive to be meaningless "existences". I use that term as that is what they tell me...they are merely "existing". The families rarely if ever visit. Many clients are verbally abusive and just plain nasty. Some of my shifts have been...hold on...36 hours straight with no sleep. I complained to my agency and apparently they cannot find fill ins for my shift because NOBODY ELSE WANTS MY CLIENTS. Also, since we are a non-medical agency, I am concerned about a client that has developed leg ulcers due to diabetic neuropathy and cellulitis. He refuses to see a doctor and I cannot get a visiting wound care nurse in here! Am I insane? Can someone please respond. Anyone?
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I'm an older nursing student, 44, about to graduate next year. I'm a good student on full scholarship. Now the hook. I may just be burned out already but I'm having doubts about this profession. For 8 years prior to school I've worked as a CNA and do the same, full time, through school, for an agency. To say I'm skilled in geriatric care would be an understatement. I am also a dual psych major and planned to practice geri-psych. However, I just do not think I can do this any longer. I rarely encounter any happy seniors--ever. In fact, the two steady home clients I have now are both complex physical and psychological cases, with both patients exclaiming hourly that they "want to die". I do my best to keep them comfortable, clean, cared for, even entertained...yet nothing changes and I feel helpless and depressed. I realize that I cannot fix everything. But it scares me to question why medically we are prolonging lives of the elderly who clearly experience little to no joy and express no desire to continue what they perceive to be meaningless "existences". I use that term as that is what they tell me...they are merely "existing". The families rarely if ever visit. Many clients are verbally abusive and just plain nasty. Some of my shifts have been...hold on...36 hours straight with no sleep. I complained to my agency and apparently they cannot find fill ins for my shift because NOBODY ELSE WANTS MY CLIENTS. Also, since we are a non-medical agency, I am concerned about a client that has developed leg ulcers due to diabetic neuropathy and cellulitis. He refuses to see a doctor and I cannot get a visiting wound care nurse in here! Am I insane? Can someone please respond. Anyone?