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I'm a new grad (May 05), with no experience in the medical profession. Second career (I'm 40). Hired for a 48-bed telemetry/step-down unit, and my orientation to nursing has been horrible.
I was hired for days, and on day one the woman (preceptor 1) they were going to put me with wasn't there so I was with someone else. The second day I was with the original person (we'll call her preceptor 2), but she was having issues at home and didn't want to take anyone. So the Patient Care Director asked me if I could go on nights (preceptor 3)--I said "fine" being the flexible new grad that I am. Nights were fine, and after four weeks (in which I missed a week--was away, so it was actually 3 weeks), they put me on days to get up to speed for daytime pace for my remaining two weeks.
Well, the woman they put me with on days (preceptor 4) is very... (lets say it wasn't a good fit) basically I just can't do anything correctly, or fast enough. When I ask her a question I get a "you don't know?" and a heavy sigh. She's had me in tears a couple of times and I've been completely overwhelmed with 3 patients (they usually have 5, sometimes 6). On nights I had up to 5 patients (they usually have 6-8 depending on how many people are on) and juggled pretty well and had time to eat. On days, I was a complete wreck (some days didn't eat anything all 12-hour shift).
I spoke to (that's code for got "really teary") the Patient Care Director and I'm going back on nights (till I get my confidence up--is what she suggested), and I'm fine with that. But in the meantime, I'm also beginning to not like the patients, they're all pretty sick, and needy, and it's beginning to annoy me a little bit (not a good sign). Or maybe I'm just stressed and projecting on the patients. I also wonder if I'm in the right job for me?
So basically the last three weeks have been very stressful, and horrible, and I've been dreading going to work and I'm wondering if I really want to do 'bedside' nursing at all. On this floor or anywhere. I'm back on nights now for a couple of weeks (with preceptor 3), and just don't know what to do--at least I'm not crying on the drive home anymore.
I'll be looking into other options for nursing, maybe a doctor's office, maybe another hospital/unit. But in the meantime do you think it would be "OK" to talk to the nurse recruiter at the hospital to see what else is out there? My husband doesn't think I should talk to her, that she would go right to my boss. I also wonder if there is any resource out there that gives you an idea of what each specialty is like (my ASN program was obviously not much help). As much as I browse this forum, there is a whole lot of data to sift through. Any thoughts? Pep-talks, suggestions?
thank for listening to me vent.
smarge