connie, hang in there, i understand. i am at a crossroads also, having worked as an rn for over 20 years, mojority of that in maternal child...l&d. now i am in a rural community that doesn't have a lot of l&d so i feel i am being redirected ...not sure where, but i know god led me here and i am sure he will put me where i am most needed. it sounds like this is what is going on with you also. before you give up on getting into the nursing program go talk to your advisor and see if there are other options, perhaps retaking a class. don't give up, sounds like you have wanted to do this for a long time, and hopefully it will happen. god will get us through this time, and put us where he needs us to be. sheila