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Honestly overall, I don't know what to do with my life. I'm lost. I have no direction. I don't know what to do.....

I don't want to rely on it like someone who I know that is 70, and she still does it. I want to move forward. I want to ADVANCE. I know I am worth more than being a maid. If that is the case I will have to find something else to do. You are right I am doing a lot of soul searching and I'm trying to find out what the best thing for me is. I don't want to be a CNA anymore.

Here we go. I've been a nursing assistant ever since 2012; almost 10 years. At that time I have worked at a rehab facility and as a physical therapy tech at the hospital. I've been there for over 6 years. Then I transferred to the OR department as a surgical nursing assistant. The rehab facility where I worked at, I worked days and nights and weekends. I realized that it wasn't for me; but I did learn so much about being a hard worker and a team player. Where I am at now, is the best place and something rare for a nursing assistant. I work 4 days Monday-Thursday, and I get the rest of the week off. And I don't work holidays. Now, I am at a crossroads; because my license has to be renewed in may. And the truth is, I don't want to renew it. Don't get me wrong, I love my current job because I'm not in the floor and I don't have to deal with having any of my own patients. I also don't have to see the same patients, only the ones that give me a hard time. There's still some things I don't like doing, like shaving, especially when I have to smell awful things. I do help with toiletings, but it's not as bad as most of the patients can walk. I just have to assist them. I also have to clean them for procedures, depending on what it is. Plus, I work with pretty much the same people so I don't have to work with a variety of different nurses. An added bonus, sometimes I can watch different procedures and it's interesting what the or staff and the doctors does. Overall, WAY different than being on the floor, and even though it can be challenging sometimes, it's the best job I've found for now. But it's because of the past experiences, especially working in rehab that I don't want to be a CNA anymore. When I first started, I had no idea how much work I would have to do. Being one of the only males that has to help with heavy patients, toileting and giving baths, wiping butts, getting falls, and dealing with so much stress wasn't worth it. When I worked nights it was horrible only because of the sleep schedule. It wasn't all that bad as there was a good team, and some of those workers who got on your nerves. It happens everywhere. I couldn't stand the sleep schedule so I went to days, and a whole new reality opened up. I had to get people ready for therapy, deal with some nasty family members and staff, had to float to other departments adding with the stress of having to deal with my other department; having departments by myself when no one, not even the hospital did anything about it, getting paid 8.35 an hour being a new CNA and getting screwed financially, being as perfect as I could because I had a manager who was strict, etc. It was so bad that I started calling off after being there for a year, every two weeks. I actually tried to get fired on purpose. That didn't work so I quit and went back to school. That didn't work either so I had to go back and endure it for a little longer. Now that I'm in a better place, I think it's time for me to hang it up for these reasons. One, I am getting older. I am going to be 30 in a few months; I'm not that kid I was anymore. I will start to get weak slowly and I don't want to damage my body anymore than I already have. I don't also want to be labeled as a 'maid.' With the time I have left before I get older, I want to excel and do something different, pursing something that I will have to work hard for, not something as easy as being a CNA. I don't want to be that guy who wipes butts, changing nasty diapers, feed people, being a babysitter. It's not rewarding to me. I also don't want to be one of those people who has to rely on being a CNA for the rest of my life. I known people, even someone who is 70 years old and she has to do this, for her benefits and insurance. What does that say? One of my biggest fears is that if it's not busy one day, then they might force me to float to the floor, and I do NOT want to go to the floor anymore. It's terrible now. It's getting worse. I don't want that responsibility and getting screwed again, doing something I don't want to do anymore. I think the main thing is that I really don't need my license for this job. It's as good as it can get. I've checked my application and I've seen that I didn't need my license for this job. Just as I didn't when I was a therapy tech. I've double checked. I might have to confirm with my HR department, but my license is not needed. Plus I don't have to spend needed money for it. For some reason I decided to mention that I had it. I know my boss and I know she might convince me to renew it, but that may not happen. I think the license overall has helped me into getting the hospital and getting experiences. I felt I paid my dues as a CNA and it's time to move on. Besides, I'm already in the hospital so I can work at different departments if needed. I'm already in. There's no need to degrade myself any lower to for an example, a nursing home, which is now getting worse because of covid. I've talked with a nurse who works there because I go back from time to time, just to visit. If anything, that job taught me how to be a hard worker. Anyways, she asked if I wanted to come back. A therapist I talked to a few days ago asked if I missed rehab. I do miss it a little; the people I work with. But don't count on me coming back there.. Ever. The main conclusion is that I'm just going to get screwed over, again. I had to vent a little. I'm just asking for advice. I'm going to ask my co-workers but I'd like to hear your thoughts. Should I give it up or should I keep it for no reason?

I am in florida. I found it thanks to God, and the fact that I was already in the hospital. But it took me a few months to find it which was sad on their part. My advice keep looking and get your foot in the door.

Hi! It's been a long time since I have posted on here, and I wanted to share my experiences on my current job as a SNA. I have to say this is the best Nursing Assistant job I ever have. I thought I would just be cleaning beds, stocking stuff, and help take care of patients but it's more than that. I do thank God for giving me this job, as I have had 2 other possible jobs i interviewed for but he knew what I needed. If I got accepted in those other jobs then something bad would have happened. The first job Float pool I knew I had to go to other floors and would have to had to risk getting a whole floor to myself and working nights and weekends again. The other job, which was pre-surgery in the surgery department was just like a regular cna job but with shorter hours. I even got to have a glance at it a few weeks ago. It seemed like a regular floor job. Someone I knew got the job, but I found out from a nurse that she wasn't working there anymore. So I guess things happen for a reason. SNA is Surgical Nursing Assistant. The department I work at is Pre-holding, or EP holding. The main part of where I work at is Electrophysiology. The doctors here work on mostly heart procedures in the lab. Usually devices, abliations, afibs, aflutters, etc. Another thing is that it's a combined department with the cath lab. Anyways, it's been an amazing experience, as I have never been in surgery as a nursing assistant; only rehab. I'd also like to point out that it's a rare thing for a CNA to be in surgery, at least where I am working at. My job there is kind of like a normal nursing assistant, but in a different way. For instance, a normal CNA has a group of patients that has to take vitals once or every 4 hours; as I don't. The patients come for surgery and go, unless they have an emergency. There's only a number of cases for they day and week. Some people do come back for other things. Another thing is that normally for a unit there's many assistants on the floor; as I am the only one working 4 days a week. There's another SNA, but they only work once a week unless there off from school. It does suck sometimes I can't talk or relate to other people who are cnas, but it's not that bad. My job duties there are like 25% of what normal cna jobs do. I do check blood sugars, vitals, and take patients to the bathroom. Good thing about the bathroom part is that most of the time the patients can walk by themselves and I just have to hold on to their gown. Sometimes there's urinals and bedpans, but not frequent. Before as a regular cna I had to assist patients to the bathroom; sometimes they were max or totals or even had diaper changes. Now that rarely happens. I think 2 or 3 times I had to help a nurse change diapers. I do clean as well, but it's only for surgeries. Most of the time I have to prep a patient by either shaving or wiping their skin down with special soap to prevent infection. Sometimes it does get boring and repetitive though. I also do most of the transporting picking and dropping patients back to their rooms, so I don't sit in one place all the time. It's nice to go to different parts of the hospital from time to time. Sometimes I also help cath lab transport their patients back to their rooms too. Another thing I do sometimes Is I help set up a-lines, or arterial lines. I work with an Anesthesia Tech who is also alone doing the work by themselves. Most of the time they set up a-lines for the doctors to put in the patients to monitor their blood pressure besides the arm. It's not an easy task but I managed to set it up at least. I have also gotten to go to the labs and help sometimes turnover a case after it was finished, but I still need help in that department. A great thing about working there is that I work 4 days a week, get one off and work no weekends. It's almost impossible to find a job in nursing where people get weekends off. I always had to work every other weekend, days and nights and rarely had time off. Even when i was working in therapy i had to work weekends. I haven't had weekends off in a long time so I was grateful for that. I hear that few surgery departments where I work at get weekends off but most of them have weekends or on call. Another thing is that if I have time, i can watch a procedure which can be interesting. There was a day where It wasn't busy so I asked my boss if I could watch a heart procedure in another department. I did and it was incredible. I never saw an open heart procedure and I was standing for most of the time. I haven't had the chance to see another one but If I can i will. I think the best part about my job is that I get to pull sheaths. Sheaths are what doctors use in some procedure and when they are done either a nurse or I will remove them unless the nurse has to test the blood. And I have to say I have never seen blood like I have before. When I was a CNA, I did get to draw blood, but I actually never had blood on my gloves. It's really cool as I get to do something important. I also remove the a-lines as well. It's hard sometimes because I have to disconnect the ivs and stuff and finding a pulse as well. And sometimes my fingers get numb as I have to hold either 10 or 15 minutes, depending on how big the sheaths are. If you are a CNA looking for a job in the hospital, don't give up. Sometimes you have to go in and get yourself in. It happened to me and that's how I got my first job ever at the hospital with no experience, but I've had to learn through hardships. And if regular nursing assisting isn't your thing, there's many opportunities to look out for. I'd never thought I would be working in a surgical department where's there so many things that's different from being a regular CNA. Also, is anyone else a SNA? If so what do you guys do in your departments? I would like to know.

I was just hired to work as a surgical nursing assistant in the cath lab at my hospital and I'm very excited to start. Thing is I have never worked in the cath lab before, but I have worked as a nursing assistant on other floors. What are the job duties for a surgical nursing assistant there? What are their tasks? What's a typical day like? Any answers will help. Thank you.

I will admit, the first night will be the worst one. I could barely keep my eyes opened before the end of the shift. What made it worse was that I had to take the bus home, and I had to walk a mile to the bus stop lol. Don't be afraid to ask questions. Observe, take notes, and see how the routine goes. It will take some time to get used to but you will. I hope you do well!

Good news! After a long week delay since my phone interview, they called and said that they want to interview me for the position. For me, it's going to be easy because the position is at the same place I work at, so mostly I will have a better chance of getting hired. Plus, I've floated before on my floor, so I pretty much know the routines. Just some advice. I haven't taken an interview in three years since my last one. To anyone who has/had experience in float pool, what do you think the questions they might ask me? How should I prepare for the interview, since it's float term? And most of all, how does it really work? How does the scheduling work? Do we pick our own schedules? is there a guantree that I can work most of the time? Anything will help. Thanks.

I have been trying to find a full time job right now, but really no luck. I have tried places from surgery, to central sterile tech, to even an environmental aide, but still I get denied. What's funny is that I have had 7 years experience working at a hospital, a first time job at a hospital of all places, and I still get denied. I don't understand what the employees are looking for, because I have plenty of experience in the healthcare field. What's funny is that I applied to the places even the hospital where I work at! But after some thinking, I decided to apply for float pool. Why, because I have lots of experience in floating. On my unit before I transitioned to another job, I was floated once every week to another unit. The first time I did that, it was hard, because the unit I worked at was a rehab unit, and it was a WHOLE different experience. In rehab, I only took vitals once every 12 hours and had to round. It was a laid back floor, even if it was busy. And I usually had a few patients, but when I floated, I had about 15 patients, and I had to take vitals every four hours, which was hard. I hated floating when I first started, but in time, I got in the routine of it, and there were times where I wanted to float instead of being on my unit. Especially days on weekend, because I had to get almost all of my patients ready for weekend therapy, and it was pretty bad. That's one of the reasons why I will NOT work as a day cna anymore. For a while, I have been debating whether to apply for night shift again because of float pool. And today, I decided to apply, because I think floating is the best thing for me right now. Having to go through it already many times, I have lots of experience floating days and nights, and I think it's better for me to experience different things. Even going to another department in my unit, I just feel that I'm not going anywhere anymore. I feel like I have been taken advantage of by my supervisor, because I have worked so hard and it doesn't seem to matter to her. She always feels like I have to do something and orders me around, and not in a nice way. She can be nice if she HAS to, but otherwise I don't want to work for her anymore. I feel like being on both sides of the unit isn't enough for me anymore, and my heart's not into it. For floating, I know there's risks of being on the floor all by myself, as I have experienced it many times. Yes, I do feel bad that I can't give the best of care, but now I understand I must do what I can. If something wrong happens, I did what I could, and they can't take the blame on me. If it's fully staffed, then that's another story. Plus, there's risk that they will give me the crappy assignments, but hey, who said any work was going to be easy? I know that the hours may not be available, but for now that's not an issue, until something happens. But I know for a fact that they need people right now. The big plus side for me,is that I am already there working at the hospital, so there's a greater chance that I will get the position, and I already know most of the hospital. Another factor is that I don't have to answer to anyone but the hospital. Honestly, I am a person who wants to work and go home, and I don't like all the group stuff, like taking pictures, hanging out with staff in and out of work, gossip, and the drama/politics. I like to talk to co workers, but most of the time most of them just talk a lot and I don't like engaging with that. I just want to do my work, and go home. I do hear that I can make my own schedule, and that will come in handy for me, because I do plan on taking a trip some where and with my current job, I don't think that's possible. The pay is a lot better too, so as I hear. I really need a higher paying job again as I got a car, and I want to get some kind of affordable health insurance. I know they may not provide benefits, but if I can get something, then that's something for me. Sitting, the best thing about floating. Watching a patient for 12 hours is something I like to do. One on one care for me is easier, as I only have to focus on the one patient. I know I may be pulled over to other units, but I feel like I like to work at different places. I feel this is the right move for me, because of my experiences in the past. And I do feel confident about it. I know there will be hard days but at some point we have to grow up. If any cna has been in float pool, can you tell me your experiences?

Males not being apprenticed enough in healthcare. I am one of the only males who works at the unit and who works harder than an average CNA. I don't know much about males not being praised, but me in general whatever I do doesn't really matter to anyone. And I can understand that, being the fact that we all have different jobs to do and that we don't have time to think about that. It does get annoying sometimes when females who can barely lift a 35 pound weight have to ask me for help all the time, and they are mostly therapists or nurses. But I still do it because they are at greater risk of breaking their bones. They get paid more than me, and I do all the grunt work and it doesn't matter at all. Hopefully soon I find a better job and a better unit.

That's how it is. I am a CNA and I can tell you things like this is growing in healthcare. Just do what you can. If people don't want to listen and make changes, do what you can until you had enough and find a different job.

"Where do you see yourself in five years?" That's what my boss told me during an job interview for a CNA position in 2012. It was my first job, my first real job at a hospital, in a rehab unit. This was my first post-https://allnurses.com/cna-ma-nursing/the-truth-of-856685.html I laugh at it now because I was arrogant and stupid. Past two years there working days and nights, I left because I wanted to go back to school, and I didn't like it. So I left in 2014. School didn't work out, so I had no choice but to go back to the floor. The boss asked me at the time if I wanted to really be there. Honestly, now I can say that I wanted to try somewhere else different, but sometimes in life, you have no choice but to do what you have to do. So, I went back in 2015, night shift, same thing, and after a few months, I wanted to try something different. During the day time, There was Therapy, and there was a job I wanted to try out, Therapy Aide. I asked my boss about it and she said she had no positions at first, so then I asked her if I could work there one day a week, on Fridays, and she let me. It was a good job. The hours were good, and I got paid from my cna salary, which was a blessing. I got extra money just to work on Fridays. A year goes by, and I wait for a position and I finally got it. I wanted full time, but someone else needed it because of the benefits, and I couldn't say no to that. There was some time to wait, but I got the job. I even talked about it on here about leaving on one of my posts. At the time, I wanted to try the job. I was thinking about a career in therapy, but inside, that wasn't the case. That was like a cover story, in all honesty, because I wanted to leave the other job and go to school. It had nothing to do with being a Therapist. First year, it wasn't bad. Sure, the money didn't pay well but I thought the job was "due-able." Sometimes my boss would ask how the job was, and I would say it was great. That was not true. It was good, because that's how I felt about it. I wasn't jumping up and down for joy, it was just another job. I had good days, and I had bad days. Overall, it was just good. Now it's been over two years. Same thing, hours, money, boss, etc. I don't feel Rehab is in my heart anymore. The unit I have been in almost 5 years, I don't want to be there anymore. I have been thinking about it the day when the boss scolded at me and a coworker for doing something wrong. In fact, she scolds a lot. Since the time I started being a Therapy aide, the number one thing that I had to and still have to deal with is not enough hours. Usually I would work 6 or 7 hours, and would have to leave early because my boss said so. Or, if the ratio is low, I would have to leave at 12, 1, or 2. In rare cases, I would have to leave at 11, or 11:30. The times my coworker wants a day off, I usually take her space, and would work a whole day, but that really didn't make a difference. She would get paid more than me. I would do more since the coworker can't do much. I tried looking for another job, but it just didn't work out for me. And I didn't want to work two jobs. When it got to the point where I needed more hours, I had an idea. One time I asked the boss if I could work on another therapy unit at the hospital, because I wasn't making a lot of money and needed more hours. My coworker worked there for a year because she had to leave for family issues. They let her work there at the unit, so I figured I'd give it a shot. So, my boss calls the other boss, not in her office but out of the open on the unit for everyone to hear. When she hung up, she said they couldn't do it because of their "budget". Since I am PRN, I get paid less, and I was ok with it before, until I turned 26, and realized how badly I have been treated on the unit. Not just as a Therapy Aide, but a CNA as well. Since I am a male, I work really hard, and I do go over and above, but it doesn't mean much to anyone, as I seen. Yeah, i get thank yous, a few recongtions, and I even got a candy bar. I work too hard for too little. In nursing, I went over and above, and it meant little to anyone. Other people got praises while I got nothing. Patients who give out praises did not give me anything, despise me working so hard and giving them the best care. I feel that most people don't care if you work hard, and that's a problem. I've been told a few times in nursing and therapy that I should get a raise, since I do a great job, but I don't. All I get is barked orders from my bosses, even stupid orders, and orders where they over react. I just nod my head and do it. I don't expect to get praised much in health care, since I am a male. On my unit, I do too much and still do, and it doesn't mean anything. But to those who do something, they get praised for sometimes the same thing that I do. I am a person who doesn't like to say no. I feel at this point, Rehab is all about numbers, and not the real purpose. They just about bring in anyone, and they don't seem to care if they are patients who shouldn't be there, patients who doesn't want to do therapy, or patients who can't move and always have to use a device to get out of bed, and never take a step. I do question why they are there so many times, but it doesn't matter. Because those patients don't get the help they need, and they are just taking their money and wasting their time. I feel I wasted enough time there, and it's time for me to go. I did make that choice leaving nursing, and I paid for it. I don't regret it, but now I feel it's time to go and move on. I used to show up early to set up, but not anymore. Now I clock in, and eat breakfast for a few minutes before going there. And I have never done that. I do plan on going back to being a cna, because right now, I have no choice. I am getting a car soon, and I have no health insurance. I am holding on by the grace of God that I don't get seriously injured until then. Oh, and I don't plan on going back to being a cna on the unit. Even their pay is bad, and they honestly don't pay me enough anymore. I am looking to go into float pool, because I have lots of experience in it, and they pay well too. I usually don't think about the money, but at the end of the day, it's about the money. At first, I didn't know I was being cheated on working 8 dollars an hour. When I did come back, I got paid 13 an hour, but I feel that's not enough for me. I feel I am too much of a hard worker who gives everything to take care of the patient. Even heading on 33 patients, or a whole unit without breaking down, that's giving 100% percent. I used to complain about cooperates in the past, supervisors, managers, and even the ceos. But at the end of the day, no one gives a ****. It's all about budgets and bonuses. It's all about buying ****** equipment and not buying new ones for the unit. It's about taking money from the budget and spending it on themselves instead of doing what's right. It's about them looking out for themselves instead of what's important. It's about talking about changes and buy expensive things to make town halls and meetings flashy, but missing the point altogether. I don't care anymore. If I do go back, and if things are the same, which it is, I will do what I can and go home. I will be like one of those workers who will look out for myself and the patients. If I do a good job, great. If not, great. I did what I could, I go home, and I still get paid. It's about money, right? I didn't used to think so, but now it is. If I don't get things done, or if I fall behind, I will just sing a happy tune in my head and deal with it. I can't cry over every little thing. Most people get used to it now. If I get a whole floor, I will do what I can. I won't complain, and if people complain to me, I will just shrug and move past it. I am a human, and not perfect. At the end of the day, we have to survive and do things we don't want to do. Throughout the past 5 years, I feel I did grow up a lot. I guess this is what being an adult is. I don't know what to do with my life. Being a CNA is all I have and know at this point. I don't have an interest in nursing, but I have enough experience in the field. At this point for now, I have no choice but to continue it. As for school, I am not a smart person, and I have trouble with doing lots of classes. School at this point is on hold. There's my answer. This is where I am now.

Thanks for the kind words. I didn't mean to put it like that. I just thought being a cna was part of the nursing field. I guess not. And no, I don't see myself being a nurse. There's too much to know and I don't feel knowing all that knowledge is a good thing for me. I am just a hard worker, no matter what area of field I work.

I said I wanted to be a nurse, but now I decide not to, after being in the nursing field/being a cna for a long time. Sorry for the confusion. lol

I know. To most people, it sounds crazy. Some people may be thinking, why would you leave a job that pays well? Why would you lower your standards? Believe me, I did put those points into consideration. I knew I wouldn't be making a lot of money. My boss even let me know. And when she asked me again if I wanted to stay at nights, I hesitated. This is when doubt starts to come in. Being a CNA at nights, I do make a lot of money, and honestly, I really do the job well. In fact, I get almost nothing but praises and respect from my fellow co workers. That right there is a blessing. But, I really had to take a deep look inside, and ask myself these questions. Do I really like what I am doing? Do I love nursing? Is it worth it, just to make a lot of money? I do like helping people. I feel that's what I'm called to do. I did have experiences in both fields. I did spend enough time to analyze what I had to do to in both fields. In case and point, Therapy aides really don't make enough money. Only eight hours a day, and sometimes the pay varies. CNAs make a lot of more money, one because the are certified, an most places do pay a good or more amount of money. Shifts are mostly 12 hours, day and night. Then I ask myself more questions. Are you happy making a lot of money, and most importantly, are you happy with what you are doing? Do you believe in what you're doing is right? Do you believe this is making a positive influence? Do you believe in the job overall? These are the answers. It is good to make a lot of money, so yes I do believe that. But, what I do most of the time really doesn't make he happy, unless I have a good shift. I do believe that helping people is the right thing to do, but there's always better ways to help, without dealing with the politics and stress. Like I said before, I have a major positive influence on my unit, because I believe that having healthy relationships with your co workers is right. In my job overall, I don't believe in the purpose. I don't believe in the mission anymore. I'm seeing a big decline in nursing. Most of the time, it's either drama, more drama, greed, or politics. Then there's constant rule changes everyday, pointless huddles, pointless staff meetings, etc. What I'm also seeing is an increase in lazy people who don't want to do their jobs anymore. Most people are old, or older. They have been there for many years, and some feel that it's time to work less and still get paid more money. And you know the funny thing, they don't get in trouble. Even people who speak out to the bosses and tell them, they just brush it off. Can you take a guess why? Either they need more and more staff for money, or they have close relationships with that person. (Favoritism) Another thing that I've talked about before, staffing. I won't get too much into it, but having too many patients to yourself and cooperates to management ignoring the issues is just unacceptable to me. Especially with the big increase in heavy patient load, you try to do much as you can, but you can only do what you can, and that's something I can't do. It's not right. Another thing, favoritism. I also talked about this. Just the other night, one nurse basically scolded another cna, because she didn't like working with her. She, and most people basically want me. There's no trust anymore. Most people in nursing is divided. I don't see people actually working together anymore, unless they want to. They don't trust each other. How can we give great care to patients when we can't even work together? For therapy, it's a different environment. I help the therapist give therapy to patients, make sure the area is clean, stock up on items, filing paper work, scheduling, and that's basically it. Sometimes it does get busy though, and there are some people who are hard to work with. But that's with any job. The hours are better too. From 8-4, and it would definitely help with school when I go back. Yes, there will still be weekends, and I may have to work straight days, but I honestly miss the day night routine, and sometimes I hate having to stay up all night just to condition myself. My goal is to still help people, and I do have an interest in therapy. It may not be as I want if I decide to change paths, but I know one thing for certain. I can't be a part of nursing anymore. I've worked both days and nights, and I know that i don't see myself as a nurse anymore. I wanted to be at first, but in time, I lost interest. It's all about favoritism, laziness, and most of all, cooperate and management greed. It's a lot of pressure to make sure that you give the patient the right care, with bosses breathing down our necks. Plus, with surveys coming up, they expect high scores, or else there will be more pointless meetings discussing the same problems. I know all jobs have their ups and downs. But If you love what you do, then you can fight through it. I enjoy helping people, and If I decide not to choose therapy, it is what it is. There's more than one career in the health field to help people. And now, My interests have now gone to therapy. And if I have to take a big leap of faith and take the low pay cut, so be it. I can't be in a field where I think that there's so much wrong that it gets to the point that it is just ridiculous. I know I will be criticized, especially because of the pay rate, but it's time to follow my heart and see where it leads me. So, the answer is, yes.

But i've had nurses that does refuse to help. They just don't want to.

For the past three weeks, I've been getting the same nurse at work. You see, this nurse always wants me every time we work on the same shift. I feel she always makes sure that she has me with her assignment by telling the charge nurse. She even told me this on the last shift we worked on together. It's getting old to me now. Don't get me wrong, I do appreciate the kind words she says, and her always wanting to work with me, but working with the same person over and over again is starting to bug me. What's worse is that when I'm with this nurse, I do most of the work because this nurse rarely helps. And when she does help, it's always complaint after complaint after complaint. And most of the time she does complain. Not that I have a problem with doing most of the work, it's just that I need a refresh once in a while. We all do. And when Favoritism comes in, sometimes it' not always good. It feels like I'm trapped with the same person. Honestly, I'm just tired of not just her, but other nurses doing the same thing. They always want that certain person. Believe me, I'm guilty of this as well, and I used to act like this in the past, and sometimes I cringe when I get a certain nurse I don't want to work with, but now I learned that you always can't work with the people you want to work with. There's people I'll admit I don't want to work with, but I deal with it. Why, because I have a job to do, and I don't have time being best friends with my co-workers at work. I do get along with people, but at the end of the day, I clock out, get paid, and go home. And when that favoritism happens, certain people get upset because they feel they aren't worth anything to them, no matter how hard they try. They feel that drift of space, like someone is targeting them for some unknown reason. It's wrong, and it should not be in the workplace. Especially in nursing. Just recently, a CNA I know well was at my work place for a few months. And you know what happened? She felt like no one at work was giving respect to her. She felt like they were targeting her, while everyone else protected each other. At first, she didn't care, but then it got to a point when she just had enough, and told the manager. Now, the manager is investigating it, because she told me that it's been going on a lot on my floor! Not just her, but other people as well. Now she is going to have a talk with the nurses and the CNAs to see what can be done about it. I understand that there's only a few people that work harder than others. I can vouch for myself, because mostly everyone tells me how hard of a worker I am. And that's why that nurse wants me badly every time we work together. But she needs to understand that I always can't work with her. Get over it people. We have a job to do. No matter how good or bad a CNA, or a Nurse is, we have to take care of the patients. That's what we need to do when we are at work. Be a team, put all the favoritism aside, and make sure the patients are taken care of. Would it be nice if everyone was a hard worker, YES. But that's not always the case. There will always be that one person or persons who ruin it and thus there is much division involved.

I understand that. Completely. But I have been in situations and people have told me that nurses just refuse to help, even if they aren't busy. I just know now that nursing is getting worse, and that's why I need to consider finding another career soon.

That I understand. I'm just asking about the one's who refuse to help even if they aren't busy.

This is not for debating, but observation. I just want to know to the nurses out there, why do you refuse to help a cna? Why do you not want to show teamwork? Why do you just say no? Again, this is not for debating or arguing. I'm just interested to see the responses I get.

This past year, being a CNA has really opened my eyes to a lot of things. Made me understand how things really work in nursing. From patient care to politics, I've been through it all. Recently, my eyes have opened more working this past weekend on a night shift, and I realized something. I can't do this anymore. I have been a CNA for over four years. Back in 2012, I was a fresh, young assistant with a first job ever! Yes, it was hard, and I had my moments. From working nights to days, then leaving my job to go back to school, and then going back again after school didn't work out was a lot, but an experience that made me a better person. When I came back, everything was basically the same, until I started to notice something. I saw the decline of nursing coming. People are getting sicker, heavier, and that's not even the big part. What's disturbing is that most people just don't care. Only a small amount of people who have a heart and actually cares exist. But as time will prove again and again, they will disspear, and soon the storm will come. In fact, it's getting closer and closer every time I come into work. Bosses are more demanding then ever, CNA's now don't do what they are supposed to do, more nurses are now refusing to help, and a big one, one to no CNA on a unit. Overall, they expect you to give the best care no matter what, and that's something I can't continue to do. The past weekend I was working, and Saturday an Sunday nights was the big eye opener. I had to work on another floor, and a CNA I knew had a floor to herself. The floor I went to had eight total care patients with a CNA and only two nurses. In fact, a nurse asked me to give her a hug because they needed a CNA on the floor. I appreciated that, but it wouldn't matter, as the night was a nightmare. A few hours later, the supervisor called, telling me I had to go back to my floor. I was surprised, as I knew the nurses needed me there. They asked me to stay because we didn't have time to check or turn most of the patients. They didn't want me to leave, and I knew I couldn't leave either. For example, one room I was going in and out of constantly because the patient was pooping and screaming. The nurse helped, but at the wrong time. It was time for meds for her patients, and she just told me to leave the patient there. Even though I didn't agree, I had no choice. So we left the patient there for a while, and there was nothing we could do. Before I left, the nurse called the supervisor trying to find another CNA, because it was just too much for two female nurses and you know what she said? "Just do what you can." So, I go back to my floor and I find out that the other CNA left, because she was sick, due to having the whole floor to herself and being stressed out about it. Now, I didn't know if it was true, but I gave her the benefit of the doubt, because it was really that bad. Only two nurses on the floor with a charge nurse... One of the nurses was surprised that a hospital would do something like this. I told her that this was nothing was new, and that they do it all the time. They just don't care. And she had an important point that was crucial. People could loose their licenses over it. The next night, I have the whole floor, again. I was upset, but I did what I had to do. But even when I think about it, it's just not right. The only reason I even worked on the floor by myself was because it was my floor, and I knew the nurses. But if it was somewhere else, you can forget about it. Something got me angry that night. A nurse was giving another nurse report on one patient, and she told her that the patient complained because "no one came last night," and told everybody . The nurse leaving the shift had the nerve to tell me to check on the patient frequently. I didn't get angry, but upset because I told her "look, I have the whole floor to myself. What do you want me to do?" Of course she told me to give the patient the call light, and I did check when I had time, but I felt that they were putting the blame on me, and I wasn't even on the floor the first half of the night. Plus, when I came I did go to that patient a few times, but what more could I do? Even with the nurse's help, it was still too much. I know people are going to say to work somewhere else, but I hear stories every where that nursing is getting worse. It's just not happening at the hospital, but basically everywhere. If this is what nursing is coming to, then I want no part of it. I still like helping people, and I still want to be in healthcare, but not for nursing. Every time I go to work, I want to give the best care I can give. But now when I go to work, I feel pressured on what group I'm going to have. What nurse I'm going to have. Where I'm being sent to on another floor. How can I do that with so much pressure? Why does higher management make people go through this, and think nothing of it? Why isn't the issue being addressed? Because they don't feel the need to. And that's the problem. I had people tell me to share my concerns to the right people, but I just don't care anymore. For a long time, I had to go through of what nursing is becoming, a nightmare coming. A start of the storm. And it's only going to get worse. I just know. And as long as their people who only care about profits and cooperate business, there won't be a change. I don't want to be that person who just says "do what you can." I hate being that person in not giving great care because people won't wake up and see what we see every time we take care of people. They don't want to understand what we have to go through. They won't listen to us, only their pockets, and that's what they get at the end of the day. What right do any of us have not to give the best care possible? Who are we to treat people who need our help? All I want to do now is just to do my job. I really don't care about the money, I just want to make sure I do my job good. But with more adding pressure as the days to come, It's just not enough anymore. Soon, I will find another job in healthcare, and I will put this behind me. It's time to hang it up. It's time to go.

First off, I'm sorry for that rough night. And thanks. I do appreciate the kind words. The main reason why I wrote this post was to inform that this happens WAY too often. Where I work at, the situation is being overlooked. Too many times, a CNA is on a floor by themselves, and it's too much. A few times I understand. But happening frequently is another problem. Trust me, I hear stories that people do complain, and nothing is being done. I even knew someone who wrote a note to the manager after she had to take care of a step down unit all by herself. Last I heard, she told me that the manager didn't do anything. They don't do anything. And that's the problem. The more it happens, the worse it gets. I wasn't being a "drama" queen lol. But this was personal, and it still is. Especially because I understood how people felt when they have a whole floor on their hands. It sucks. And what was worse was that no one cared enough to bring someone else in. Not long ago, there was a meeting for two hours on the floor where I worked at, asking us how to make better changes. You see, our survey scores were bombed, which meant it was THAT bad. We discussed what the problems were, and what needed to be changed. You know what I did? I laughed. Throughout the whole thing. The things they were talking about were the same things that needed to be fixed. And you know what? No one does anything about it.. I had a good co worker who was there for five years. When I started, he complained about some things including what I talked about,and didn't understand why they would continue to do it like this. So, he had a tech meeting. A TECH meeting. Where all the techs would go to the MANAGER to discuss the problems. I wasn't there, but I know that having a whole floor was a big issue when going to another floor. He tried some more, but no one cared. So, he left. What more could he do? He realized the same thing I am realizing right now. Certain people don't care about what it means to be in healthcare anymore. It's all cooperate, and it's all about money. So yeah, I don't take the complaints up higher. Wanna know why? Because the problem will never be solved. People will come up with excuses that I can't argue with. Plus, it's a waste of my time and breath. Alias, I will still do my job, I will still give great care, and when that day comes, I will just say no. It has been a great experience, but there's worse things in life than loosing a job. I will find another one eventually, and I know it will be hard. Believe me, I completely agree with you. But someone can only go so far. Soon, there's no point in fighting anymore. I just wanted to vent. At least that's something. Take care. :)

Thanks for all the kind words people :)

Thanks for your kind words :)

This one wasn't "negative." I was just asking a question. People just don't understand lol.