Elan84

Hi, I know its been years since you post this. But I am in a similar situation and I would like to know what was your outcome or if you found any solution?

Yes, I have been thinking about all this for a while. Yes I made some big errors gladly all my patients are alive and didn't get worse than a write up. I found a new job. Will be starting soon. I will try it out one more time with a fresh start, walking slowly and trying my best to stay away from the same mistakes. I will be positive and I'll be more humble to criticism as well. I will let you know how it goes for this second year. Thank you all for the kind responses.

í ½í± Thank you.

Of course there are some great advices from very professional nurses, some of my replys aren't making sense because for some reason my account is not directing it to the person I am trying to refer to, is this because I'm using my iphone ?. like the person who expressed oh boy she is getting new job, poor patients. I don't believe that is appropriate for a forum of professionals. I do appreciate everyone's comments and in multiple occations I have said yes I assume I made mistakes and I know how big they can be and I am willing to correct it. But unfortunatelly I can not wait there because I am in a black list and If I do they are going me.

I get along well with all my coworkers, not sure why your assumptions, my patients love me and I have made long term friends in the medical field. May be I had a bad month, and I made important mistakes. But I see more clear now and my head is up. I appreciate your tough love. But still don't get why you get so angry about this? I was just looking for guidance. I am sure I am not the first new grad who has made a mistake during the first year of practice. Why not to guide instead of burn the new grads? this is emotionally bullying, I feel pain every time people like you call me incompetent, I guess you feel happy under grading people? why still don't get why? where is all the good people in this field? we are called to be nurses and care for others why not to take care of our own?. If it makes you feel better, yes I feel bad for what I did, but I ask GOD for forgiveness if in any means my mistakes could of harm a patient, and yes I am moving on to continue being a Nurse.

:***: What! I say nothing about becoming an ADON, but why not, may be in 5 years

So you are telling I should quit being a Nurse? Just because in my first year I made some mistakes? is ok, I have met people like you, and I appreciate your time to comment, but I am not getting nothing productive from your post.

My interview went really well, hope my current manager won't trash my reputation, what you guys think?

Thank you. I will work on that for sure.

Wow Is Good to wake up and see finally a positive Nurse in this forum, Good Soul Nurses do exist, and I can tell you are one of those, thank you for your positive words.

I don't know where the bullying is coming from, I have not said any bullying anywhere in this article?

is not the criticism is the Approach used, you for example approached it very well, in this post no bullying was used, I agree with you In the fact that charge nurse is not the issue, what I was trying to explain is that the few times I went to my charge nurse for help, she ignored me and sat on her desk to play with her phone. But anyways I know and understand my fails and mistakes are mine and I own them.

Thank you all who replyed, I take many of your comments very seriously. I will not judge, focus, keep my mouth close and my head up and resign my current job as soon as possible. This is just my first year, before I know it I'll be on that 5th year and be at many of you level and hope to make it alive . I thank all of you for the positive vive and also for the upfront responses it all helps. I have an interview tomorrow, I hope GOD is on my side, I hope to find a hospital were I can grow, were I can give and I can love and help my patients because at the end this is why we are Nurses. This new nurse journey is long and though, may be mistakes will occur the importance is to learn from it and be patient and tolerant with ourselves.

I don't see why you anger towards me, yes I made a mistake I am not saying I didn't at all I did and I feel bad about it. But I also come accross with many people with your same attitude, always judgemental, angry and with a arrogant personality, also I want some tips on how to not let that affect me ?, I am a very sweet,positive, healthy and friendly person, not use to people constantly attacking you. Why it feels like I see this picture in many nurses? is this the way I'm going to become in few years?

what makes you think I'm not aware of the charge nurse role? just as a curiosity, unless play with their phones is in their job descriptions I don't think I'm wrong.