loserboy

I am only starting university in September, and am 32 Y.O. I think I can trace the exact moment when I thought that I would like to be a nurse. I was 15, living on the streets, and in the hospital. I hit a tree whilst drunk and stoned riding my bike to get more drunk and stoned. I busted my kidney into 3 pieces, and spent 6 weeks in the hospital. One of the long nights of pain sticks out sticks out more than the rest. I had so much pain that I will never forget that night as long as I live, it is so clear in my mind as if it just happened. A nurse was holding my hand and comforting me, in my worst hour, I asked her "How can you bear to see me in such pain, does it not bother you. She said that not being able to help would bother her more. Even at such a horrific time I was so impressed, by how strong these women were, and how much they seemed to care. The doctor would only come round in the morning, and always brought bad news or would rebuke me for something that a typical 15 Y.O. would do or say. I dreaded seeing the doctor, every morning he would come by and wake me up and give me more bad news and make me feel useless. When I was having trouble, the nurse would be right there by my side helping me, trying to ease my situation. The whole time I thought would it not be awesome to be a nurse, to have such a power to help and heal, after all the doctor just yelled and insulted me. But I thought to my self, alas only women can be nurses. One day a man walks in and tells me he is the nurse for the day, and the next thing that come out of his mouth was, "Don't worry I am not gay." I had been poked and prodded so much, and had tubes going in and out of every orifice I did not care if he was Liberace. Anyways, all through my 20s I was looking for shortcuts, a way to get a good job with no real schooling, I finally realized that for a guy like me there are no short cuts. So I had 2 choices, go back to school or, work at the same very secure, but at the same time a dead end job. I decided on engineering or nursing, and since I worked in mobile hydraulics design everybody thought I would choose engineer. I like Bio much more than math, and always got the highest marks in Bio with minimal effort, or so it seemed to me anyways. It turns out I work very hard at Bio, I just enjoy it so much I do not realize I am actually putting any effort into it. Plus there is that little incident that happened when I was 15 that I will never ever forget as long as I live. After then drug and alcohol haze lifted in my late 20s I was able to think properly, marrying a woman who is against drugs and does not drink also helps. So after a few years with clear thinking I now know that nothing on this earth will stop me from becoming a nurse. 4 more years. I hope I get to work with some of you people when it is my time.

I know that my attitude will help more than anything else, so I am not too worried. I guess I am more curious to hear if people get so intimidated that they do not want to deal with you. I am glad to hear that it does not really happen if you have a positive attitude, it will show through the rough exterior. I think the name loser boy is a very positive name, and it reflects me perfectly. I have lost lots of things lately, and I am very glad that I have lost them, and I hope I never find them again.

Hi there, I am entering university for my first year of nursing in Sept. I have been working in retail for 12 years, so I am good at handling all sorts of people. The thing is I am 6' tall 200lbs, have a shaved head and a goatee. Now I have never really cared what people think about the way I look, and more than a few have told me that I look intimidating, and some have said I am down right scary. Looking scary or tough is nice when I am walking around the bad neighborhood, but I have found that some people go on the defensive very quick because they seem scared or intimidated. I am good at diffusing tense situations; I have talked my way out of some real hairy ones. I feel I have a positive attitude and try to encourage all those around me to be their best. I guess when I think of what a nurse should look like, even a male, I do not see the image of some bald ugly guy as the ideal. I just wonder if this will cause more problems than it can solve. Yes I am very strong physically so I would not have too hard of a time moving patients, heck I used to unload trucks that were filled with frozen meat, and the hunks of beef weighed almost as much as a person. I wonder will a tough looking exterior give people the initial impression that I am not possible of nursing, and lead to needless verbal confrontations. Are there other men in my situation? Again I am referring to first impressions, I am very polite and respectful of those around me. After I talk to most people they see that I am really harmless. I just worry about those people who will refuse to know me because they feel so intimidated. Anyways have gone on too long I just thought that I would air this curiosity of mine and see of there are any other men that have this problem or maybe thought the way I did. Ohh yeah, is there a way a male nurse should look? .

I was in the same boat you were in. I worked full time and went to night school and am almost done correspondence, I have my exam this saturday. I quit my job tomorrow. I have been accepted for this fall provided I get my chemistry credit. My advice is take chem in school if you can, and do the easiest courses like bio and english at home. This may not be right for you but I found chem the hardest, bio and eng the easiest. Start right away and work like mad to finnish early, then you can do nothing till school starts