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  1. Amdecl6

    I'm lost. I want to quit nursing.

    Thank you everyone for all your comments and for sharing your experiences with me. I've been trying to really reflect and narrow down why I'm so unhappy with nursing. I can't pinpoint any one particular reason that's causing me to be miserable, but I do know that nursing, for me, has not been anything like what I perceived it would be. As I said before, I'm on my 3rd job in 2 ½ years and I can honestly say I haven't had much joy in any of these jobs. I've found that the tremendous amount of responsibility placed on my shoulders on a daily basis, the pressure of having someone's life in my hands, the insane non-stop back-to back patient workload, and the emotional stress and anxiety it causes, are NOT what I had envisioned my life would be like as a nurse. Yes, I had many, many clinical rotations during nursing school. And yes, they were at a variety of institutions and I was exposed to many different nursing specialties, but shadowing a nurse for clinical hours versus BEING the nurse are two VERY different things. I think the reality of what nursing really is, has me somewhat shell shocked. I'm currently working in a hospital that is amazing. It is THE HOSPITAL that everyone I know wants to work at. I have the ER job that all my friends envy. It takes me less than 8 minutes to get from my driveway to the parking lot of the hospital. I felt guilty because looking from the outside in, I have it made. This should be "the job", but instead I'm crying as I do my make-up and I work my shifts with heart palpitations and headaches from the anxiety of it all. All of my co-workers say, "Give it time, you'll get used to it.", or, "It took me about a year before it all clicked and I got used to it all." But do I WANT to get used to it? Do I want to live in a constant state of nerves and anxiety, for a year, to finally be "used to it"? Used to working under extreme stress and pressure? I think it's a sad life to have a job where I'm "used" to the stress and constant demands. I just don't think it's worth it. I'm not someone who feels the need to be challenged or likes to be pushed to their limit. I thrive off of stability, routines, and steady work. I want to go to work, do a great job, help people in any way I can, then clock out, go home, enjoy my family and not have a second thought about work until I wake up the next day and start all over. I don't like feeling rushed and spread so thin that I can't even think straight, I don't like not being able to focus on my patients and give each of them the quality of care they need and deserve because I have 3 other patients to take care of. I hate feeling like no matter how much I do or as hard as I work, it's never, ever enough. And I absolutely hate wasting my days off, like today, constantly thinking about and dreading going to work tomorrow. I've been looking a lot into case management or maybe going to work as a nurse at a surgery center. The surgery center is right up my alley with my OR experience. It's also one patient at a time, one case at a time, and I can have that one-on-one interaction with each patient during the pre-op stage before their surgery. It's also a Mon-Fri, no weekends, no holiday, no call, job that pays more. As far as case management is concerned, I think I might do better with a job that has minimal direct patient care. I know that case management involves a lot of paperwork and computer time and I've heard some say it's more like a social worker/secretarial job, but honestly, I think my type-A, systematic, linear thinking, somewhat OCD, personality would probably love it.
  2. Amdecl6

    I'm lost. I want to quit nursing.

    Oh, yes, I definitely understand how lucky I have been to have the opportunity to work in areas other nurses dream of. I was just telling a friend the other day how guilty I feel about being unhappy with a job that others would kill for. The hospital that Im at is AMAZING and I have zero complaints about the facility or the employees....Im just so miserable and I dont understand why. Im sorry you have had such a hard time finding work in your area, Im hoping and praying you find something soon!
  3. Amdecl6

    I'm lost. I want to quit nursing.

    Thank u so much!
  4. Amdecl6

    I'm lost. I want to quit nursing.

    I'd love a work from home job! Did you just do a Google search online or are there particular websites I should look at?
  5. Amdecl6

    I'm lost. I want to quit nursing.

    Yes! Pliers like from Home Depot! They were definitely stuck in the 80's as far as equipment goes. I thought I was going to need carpal tunnel surgery if I stayed much longer. Lol.
  6. Amdecl6

    I'm lost. I want to quit nursing.

    Thank you so much for telling me your story! It's so nice to know I'm not the only one having issues!
  7. Amdecl6

    I'm lost. I want to quit nursing.

    Since this morning, my friend at the surgery center messaged me to let me know that they are hiring PRN. I can't afford to do PRN due to needing insurance for my diabetic daughter, but she mentioned me to her boss who said she would work me 4-5 days a week at PRN until a full time spot opens and then I could take that spot. So that's something I'm considering.
  8. Amdecl6

    I'm lost. I want to quit nursing.

    I also had a case manager approach me today about a PRN position at the hospital I'm at now. Another PRN position tho...I really need full time for insurance purposes. ������
  9. Amdecl6

    I'm lost. I want to quit nursing.

    At this point I feel like maybe I'm just not cut out for the hospital setting. Maybe I'd do well with a doctors office? Mon-Fri with no weekends or holidays is appealing. I've thought about case management, but I think I would need a lot of experience in order to be good at it and I'm just not sure I have enough. There's also the option of working at a surgery center. I have a friend who works at one locally and she works Mon-Fri, no weekends or holidays. I thought about going that route since I have OR experience and it would be an easy transition. Plus, I could get my BSN over the next 2 years while I work and then try for a case management job that deals with surgical patients. I just know I'm not doing well in all these hospital type settings. It makes me feel like a complete loser, but we're all made with different personalities and giftings, so maybe the hospital just isn't my thing.
  10. Amdecl6

    I'm lost. I want to quit nursing.

    I'm lost. I want to quit floor/bedside nursing, but I don't know what to do as an alternative. I've been a nurse for about 2 ½ years now. I know that's not very long and some people might say that it's not long enough to know for sure that you want to quit, but I know me and I KNOW I want out. Right after graduation I went to work in the OR. I was part of a peri-op program and I managed to work there for about 1 ½ years. I knew very early on that I didn't like the OR, but I didn't want to quit and I decided to stick it out and see what happened. Ultimately, it was fast paced days, filled with verbally abusive surgeons, nit-picky charge nurses, extremely long days with being on-call, and it took a toll on me and my family. By the time I left, I was charge nurse in the afternoon/evening and I was precepting new people. I knew how to do my job and I was really good at it. Just miserable. It also bothered me that I wasn't doing any of the nursing skills I had learned in school. I was pretty much just monitoring everyone in the room, running for stuff that was needed, and getting yelled at by surgeons when anything went wrong......even if it wasn't my fault. I wanted to be in a role that had a lot more hands-on patient care. I just didn't feel like a nurse in the OR. So I left. I got a job at a long term acute care hospital. The patients there are very, very sick. Most of the patient population consists of people with respiratory failure and who are on vents and a lot of them have major wound care needs. I figured going to this facility would be a great place to learn and get some good experience. I was wrong. The facility itself was old and run down, which I knew going into it, but I thought I would just deal with it for now. The patient load was 6 patients to 1 nurse, which seems to be the standard in most hospitals in my area, but these patients are very ill, I would consider most of them to be a standard ICU patient in a regular hospital, and now I'm taking care of 6 every shift! That's a lot. A lot of them have G-tubes and take up to 20 pills at a time, all of which need crushed by hand with pliers. It was all so time consuming and by the time I finished my 1st rounds of assessments and med passes, it was time for the next round. It was monotonous and unfulfilling and I felt like I was always behind. I won't even go into dealing with the needy patients and/or their families and trying to maintain a work flow while CONSTANTLY answering call bells for the most ridiculous requests. Long story short, I left there after about 5 months. I now work in an ER. Working in the ER is what I wanted to do from day one. While in nursing school, I always imagined being in an ER. I was ecstatic when I got this job....my DREAM JOB. I've been there about 3 months now, and I hate it. I've been a nurse for 2 ½ years and not once have I loved doing it. I find it to be nothing but stress. I have anxiety ALL THE TIME, everyday, even when I'm not at work. The hours are long and exhausting and I NEVER feel like I'm doing a good job. I'm starting to sink into a serious depression, so much so, that I plan on going to see a counselor because I almost can't function anymore. Even on my days off I'm constantly stressing about having to go back. I have to work today and I had nightmares all throughout last night and didn't sleep well at all. I've had nothing but anxiety since I woke up and I feel like I want to cry at just the thought of going back today. Nursing is nothing like I thought it was going to be. Had I truly known what it entailed I would never had started this journey to begin with. I hate that I gave up so many years of my life going to nursing school. I wasted all those years studying and working so hard when I could have been home with my children. My husband is so proud that I'm a nurse, he loves to tell people his wife is a nurse. I have no pride in my job, I have no joy in what I do. I get so overwhelmed with so many tasks and people to take care of at once...I think it just sucks the life out of me and makes me hate it all. The one part of my job that I do enjoy is talking to my patients. They're nervous and sick, they don't like hospitals, they don't feel good, sometimes just talking about what's going on in their life, or about their sweet baby that's in the room, or the new job I overheard them talking about, takes away from this moment in time of being stuck in a bed, sick and afraid. I can't help but to be curious about how the issue/disease started, what do they do for work, how are they handling your illness/pain on a daily basis. My patients seem to love the interaction. So many times I've had people tell me I'm the best nurse they've had because I actually take the time to talk to them and it shows I care about them. However, all of that takes time and it can cause me to get behind in my other tasks, which just sets off a chain reaction for a bad day of rushing to catch up. I'm so miserable. I'm so stressed. I have so much anxiety all the time. I cry for no reason. I'm lashing out at my family. I need to find a solution fast. I have this degree that I worked so hard for. I'm 43 years old and don't want to start all over and have to get a different degree. I need to find something I can do, with the nursing degree that I have, that I can be happy about doing and maybe actually look forward to going to work every day. I know I'm not the only person to ever feel this way. If anyone has any suggestions as to an alternative job/area of nursing to try, I would greatly appreciate some ideas!
  11. Hello everyone. I am currently working full-time in an OR. I've been there for about a year and a half now. I'm miserable and would like to leave the OR and move on to a new department. I am a fairly new nurse. I graduated in May 2016 and started working in the OR in August of 2016. The OR, at least in my case, has offered me very little opportunities to do "nursing". I haven't even started an IV since nursing school. I feel like what little knowledge or skills I may have had are all gone....pretty much feel like a new grad at this point. I don't know what areas would be a good match for someone like me and I'm looking for suggestions. There are a lot of ER and Telemetry jobs available in my area, but I worry I won't be able to keep up. Is med-surg my only option? Or would an ER or Telemetry job be ok? Any advice or or suggestions would be greatly appreciated! Thank you in advance. :)
  12. Hello, everyone. I'm currently a nursing student. I will be starting my 4th semester soon and Im able to see a light at the end of the tunnel. Since I am in the tail end of my schooling I'm trying to plan ahead and think about where I would like to work once I'm able to. In Clay we have 3 hospitals....St Vincent's Clay, Orange Park Medical Center, and Baptist Fleming Island. I was wondering if anyone on this thread currently works at any of these locations and if so, what are your thoughts about them? Do they offer benefits? What's the starting pay for new grads? Really, any info u would be willing to share, good or bad. Thank you in advance to anyone who answers. :)
  13. Amdecl6

    SJRSC Spring 2014 applying/hopeful

    Idk about Chemistry and what all it requires. It was not a pre-req for the program so I just focused on the classes that were required. I will take Chem eventually, but my goal was to just do what was needed to be able to apply. As far as I know, you cannot apply until all of ur pre-reqs have been completed, so u can't be in the middle of taking a pre-req class and applying for the program. They are going to use all of ur pre-req grades to calculate ur gpa and u will need to have them all finished in order for them to do that. May is the deadline for fall so maybe u can take a class or two more than u had planned in order to get them done in time? I would put Chem off for now and focus on what u need to do in order to apply for the program and then u can work Chem in somewhere. :)
  14. Amdecl6

    SJRSC Spring 2014 applying/hopeful

    I got the fingerprinting and drug testing do done today, whew! It sucks that they dont do drug testing on weekends. There are 2 UPS stores on Blanding, but the 410 Blanding location, which is where I went, is across the street from Orange Park High School, right next to Jersey Mike's subs. The other Blanding location is further up Blanding, towards Middleburg. Its in the shopping center with Publix and Taco Bell. I was happy to find out we didnt have to pay for either the drug testing or the fingerprints, those barcodes on the paperwork we had to print was our "payment". :) On a different note, do you wanna "friend" up on Facebook? Do you Facebook?? Lol. I feel like we talk so much it would be easier to connect on Facebook. We can get to know each other even before we meet. :) If your not comfortable with Facebooking yet because we havent meet in person, that is TOTALLY FINE! It will not offend me at all! I promise. I just thought since Im always on FB, and maybe you were too?, that it would be a nice way to chat. :) If you want to, just private message me on here, how to find you on Facebook and Ill send you my info back. :)
  15. Amdecl6

    SJRSC Spring 2014 applying/hopeful

    Well I found out a couple of things today. CPR classes are ridiculous to find available. The St Vincent's on Brananfield wont offer any until next yr and OPMC doesn't have any on their calendar for the rest of the year unless something changes, but they don't know when or if anything could change. The Red Cross offers them but its closest location is in Jax on Riverside. They offer different kinds of CPR classes and I have no idea which one we need, so I've decided to just deal with the CPR situation after orientation. And I talked to our Worksource rep at Sjrsc. I had apparently filled out the survey but not the application, did u fill out the application? There was a link for us to copy/paste at the end of that survey that leads us to the application and we fill it out and then someone emails us within a day or two with detailed instructions. But part of those instructions will include us providing paperwork and taking 3 assessment tests to see if we qualify. So if u haven't done the application portion u may want to do it asap and get the process going. :)
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