PDmetwo

Funny sick calls are the best. I usually snort at least once a day from them. Sounds like your post is about boundaries, you may need to set some for yourself. Hard to feel confident without food and sleep. Guard your free/ me time, as a way to stay sane, this includes sleep. I had crummy training too, but now am confident I can manage anything that sores my way, and there is always new things happening. Hang in there.

I am much safer than at the nursing home as well.

Independence. I set up my day, see who I need to, make appointments, call in meds, etc as I see fit. It is up to me how it gets done, just so it does. Boss is there in person every 2 months, called 1x month. Nobody breathing down my neck to micromanage, and the jail administrator and I work together closely, he sees his job as helping me with issues.

I have a similar story. Have worked in private duty respiratory care, nursing home, hospital, community health, dialysis and corrections. Driving anywhere from 30 mins to 1.5 hours, in the snow more than half of the year, after working 12 hour nights. I have awoken more than once by hitting the gravel ditch on the wrong side of the road. Leaving jobs for ones that were closer to home, daytime, and realistic hours worked. Am happiest in my current position. I too wanted a baby, but it did not happen, my husband did not want to adopt or foster. Being childless is the club I never wanted to join. People have told me I am selfish, too concentrated on my career, why didn’t u do IVF, etc. judging me about my non- choice about having kids. People bond through their kids. Talking about them, how old, what grade, the nephew math, etc. It is lonely to be in this club, childless. Felt homeless as a nurse too, jobs to get by on, until something better came along, (5.5 years one time) hoping for improvement.