I worked with a healthcare recruiter at a job center, and she said to expect to put in 90 days of doing full-time job search to land a job. Full-time means checking job postings, making phone calls, networking EVERY day. The recruiter also told me that for every 10-12 jobs I applied for, I should expect 1 interview. Hope that gives you some perspective on how difficult the job market is. If I were you, I would get in touch with a job center or an employment agency and find out the best way to represent yourself, and where to go from here. I'm not going to blow smoke, but I don't want to discourage you either. I, for one, would not hire you as a CNA right now. I would need to see some type of retraining/education, and some better references. And why not volunteer at a LTC to build up good references? Most LTCs need volunteers, plus, you could continue to network. And remember, if being a CNA is not for you, it doesn't mean you're a bad person, it just means it's the wrong career for you.