HI everyone: I, two, have had the same challenges and thoughts during my orientation. I had a few call ins that were REALLY sick calls, and then about a month ago, I called in for 3 days in a row because of a depression about my career choice. My preceptor is Nightingale incarnate.... She is the most awesome nurse and she's sweet and she ALWAYS puts the patient's best interest at heart. So much so that when we get an admit, (we work in ICU) I feel edged out when she jumps in and takes over. I've been on this orientation for 6 months now, (it's a 9 month orientation) and I talked to my nurse manager about the fact that I didn't feel like I was advancing like I should because I wasn't being thrown into the "deep end" enough. When I talked to my nurse manager, she expressed concerns for my call ins... She proceeded to "jump on board" and say that she was giving me the information for our employee assistance program to help me get into some stress management courses and that she was not going to lose a good nurse without a fight. After talking to her about how I had been feeling and her response to helping me and asking me to please, come to her if I needed help, I feel like a load had been lifted. She is going to put me with another nurse, (who is awesome too!) and let me get "thrown into the deep end" for more experiences. All of this just to say, look into your hospitals employee assistance progams and talk to your nurse manager before you quit. Perhaps the area that you are currently working in isn't the place you want to stay forever. Your first choice is rarely your last choice, but the experiences, good and bad, are ALL good learning experiences and will help you become stronger and be a better nurse, and even, a better person. Try to not take ANYTHING personally and TRY not to be so hard on yourself. I know I am the worst at beating myself up over stupid, little, trivial things when I should continue to focus on all the good that I do. Sorry this is so long! :balloons: Jeri