Beverly913

Hi there You private messaged me back in November of 2012 and I did not get any notification. I am really sorry. I understand the need to talk to other nurses in recovery. I hope by this time you are attending 12 step meetings on a regular basis. Please email me directly at [email protected]. Hugs Beverly

I have read the many posts on this page and thank GOD for people like Jack Stem. Jack helps many of us in recovery understand that we have a DISEASE just like people with depression or hypertension have a disease. Our condition is not a moral dilemma or character defect. If one does NOT think they have an addiction problem or are in recovery from anything else, why post in this forum, especially when those of us in recovery are using it as a tool. Today, when I get INSENSED about something, I had better take a look at what I can learn from it. As one of my mentors in recovery says "In life, there are lessons and blessings". Beverly913 One of "those" people

Hi I can identify with many parts of your story. I do agree that nurses in recovery should stick together and support each other, but I would also strongly encourage you to get involved in Narcotics Anonymous. NA is my lifeline. I am coming back from a relapse with almost 4 months clean now (after having FIVE) and NA saved my life. My relapse was very short, thank God, but nevertheless, I did more damage to my career. When I first went to NA I looked for the DIFFERENCES not the SIMILARITIES. ALL addicts suffer from the disease of addiction and the 12 steps of NA help us deal with it one day at a time. You are SOO blessed to be able to keep your job. I was not able to do this. My license has been suspended temporarily, and having faced the NCBON before, I am really not sure I am ready to do it again right now, even though I am eligible to appear before the committee next month. On the other hand, I am grateful to have my husband and family. We can get the things we lost BACK and receive many more blessings if we stay clean and stay in recovery. Hugs Beverly PS I would agree with not self reporting to the Board unless you absolutely HAVE to unless where you live has a supportive program.

Hello, my name is Beverly and I am an addict. I have to always remember that FIRST. I tend to get wrapped up in what I do instead of who I am and that is a dangerous thing. I see a lot of "venting" on this thread, and believe me, I understand because I too get frustrated at the process with the licensure board. I live in North Carolina and they have one of the toughest boards in the nation. However, I have to remember that I put myself in this situation, and while I am not responsible for my disease, I am responsible for my recovery. I would like to try making a Gratitude List Post. Today I am Grateful for: 1) 60 days clean today. YAY. 2) The opportunity to go to a Narcotics Anonymous convention in Virginia Beach. 3) I laughed a LOT with other women in the program today. 4) I have a loving family, including a husband who is keeping a warm fire going in the fireplace.:redbeathe

I am an NP who actually completed the alternative to disicpline program. Unfortunately, I had a VERY brief relapse, thank GOD, but I was suspected of diverting at work. I am now on administrative leave pending investigation. I did a drug screen. I am not sure if it will come back positive. I used Subutex TWICE. My boss wrote in for that special test for Subutex. It has been 3 days since I used last. My question is this...can I repeat the alternative program? Should I go ahead and voluntarily surrender, resign, etc or wait for the drug screen results. I am honestly thinking about using my MSN in some other capacity. I had 5 years clean and this is my 3rd relapse. Please learn from me and do something EVERY day to put your recovery first. Thanks Beverly