Dear nowin, I feel your frustration in finding a job here in NC and sometimes I want to pull my hair out in frustration, but I know that giving in to that area of hopelessness we give into fear and that shows a lack of faith in recovering from our addiction wither it's alcohol or drugs. I to have found a non nursing job for now and continue to look for someone to give me a chance but until then, I keep in the now and stay away what ifs. We have no control in others and sometimes in ourselves. I do control in what I can do right now and I choose to not let someone or something take me away from my recovery. When god has a opening for you he will give it to you, have faith.