LPNTara

Thank you Janfrn. yes I'm upset for sure, I'm still crying but trying to snap out of it. I am having a hard time and I need this job for my family to eat so I think the pressure of not being able to financially survive puts this fear in my head "I'm fired" all the time. Every time I get a paycheck I convince myself it's the last one I'll ever get... Even typing this I realize how crazy I sound. I know I def need to eat and drink fluids and use the restroom... I go entire shifts without urinating...it's stupid bc I'm burning myself out and I go into work exhausted from crying on my off days lol. Now I'm back on tomorrow for five days and panicked.. I need to take a chill pill.... I may need to see an MD I'm thinking I can't do this on my own.

I feel your pain. I have one on my shin and beautiful purple spiders behind my knees...i use tanning spray to cover them in the warmer months and yes exercise helps :)

Thank you so much! I agree that I need to take a step back and I was entirely joking with my last post

Also do you have to be part of the in crowd on here to get a response or have someone write back to you? Feels like I'm at work lmaooo! being ignored and feeling dumb.

Hi there, Sick and tired of feeling like this... I I LOVE being a nurse but my paranoid feelings will not let me relax while at home on my off days when I should be recharging my batteries... I work in LTC.... Naturally. I have been there for two months and have been working my tail off to deliver exceptional care however... I have administered Tylenol for a 99.1 T and documented it (UA C/S pending) on the 24 hr report only to have a fellow new nurse announce it's not a fever... I knew it wasn't but the days previous she was spiking 102 temps so I was just trying to avoid an issue. Sent out a COPD patient to the hospital vitals stable but sats where dropping to 84 %. Contacted nursing supervisor.. Gave her more 02 (without and order with COPD) and We sent her back to hospital via ambulette, she was def heading into distress.... Took **** for not calling 911 from another nurse.... Cried about issues like these for days... I can't get a handle on my life. I feel scared and insecure and feel like I'm going to get fired 24-7..... Document like a novice..... I spend hours after my shift... still look and sound like an idiot Can't give report bc I'm hypoglycemic at the end of my shift bc I don't eat.... when I'm home I'm obsessively googling or on AN boards reading bc I'm obsessed and panicked about mistakes that may be found on my off days..... I have a family to raise and other things to do but I have not stopped crying and stressing since I started this job.... Any adivce? Is this normal? If I made a massive error over the weekend with that COPD patient would I have gotten a call about it today?? I'm sorry for the debby downer attitude lol.

Spend time with my daughter who has literally grown up overnight......... since I started school and working I feel tons of mom guilt........ I would also love a mani pedi too

That is hysterical and so true!