Hi All! I'm new to the forum and I posted on another thread, but thought I would start a new one and hopefully get some honest suggestions and advice. I was given a "sentence" of probation for 3 years in MO six years ago for diversion (NO criminal charges were ever filed against me at all, no court cases, nothing....I was very lucky!), which I fully admitted to, it was actually a God Send that I did, my life is totally different now, I have been drug free since the incident in 2003. I immediately stopped practicing as an RN and went through an MD addiction specialist to get clean...at the time, I was living in another state, which is where I was temporarily licensed to work, waiting on perm, which is why MO ended up doing the discipline case. I never went through any official rehab, not public anyway, everything was handled through a private physician, which might I add was VERY expensive!
Any who, After it taking MO over a year to review and make their decisions, I was a rock bottom and had zero funds to adhere to their insane requirements of weekly UA's (my expense of course), ongoing psych evals, etc, as I said before, I did all of this already initially, but MO counted NONE of it..I guess because it was done before I was officially charged. SO, I decided to surrender my license. I moved to another state with my family and simply haven't worked or tried to work in the health care field since. I was a high school Bio/Chem/Physics teacher for three years, got my real estate license and worked hot and heavy in real estate for two years. When I surrendered, the MO Atty Gen said I could reapply for my license in five years, which is what my contract said for probation, either I can do their three year stips, or surrender and reapply in five years. My question is, I want to reapply, but I'm not sure how to answer the some of the questions on the examination (have to retake boards because it's been so many years, which is no problem), they ask if I've been disciplined in the past five years, and I haven't, but I was before that. I'm wondering will they reinstate me after I take my boards since I waited out the time and didn't do their probation, or will they require I do the probationary terms as before? I surrendered because I couldn't afford to do them in the first place...I am hoping I can reapply free and clear since I waited out my time, but I'm a bit confused with the wording of the application. I did contact the atty gen in MO again and he sent me the application for examination and told me to fill it out and send it in...that's all he said...and I had ask if I needed to send letters, info, etc...but he didn't say, just fill out the app basically.
Which leads me to my last question, should I hire an attorney? I've read so many threads on here today saying to do so, now I'm afraid to apply without hiring one. I have debated on even reapplying, as I was a very good nurse and very looked up to in my community. Unfortunately, after suffering from migraines since the 3rd grade, after becoming a nurse and finding what I thought was a great physician to treat me, she ended up giving me rx's for morphine injections at home and it was downhill from there. I have literally cried trying to bring myself to fill out the application for the exam because I am so ashamed, but nursing is where my heart is. My therapist here, who I see just to have someone to vent life to (nothing to do with my past addiction), told me if I was that afraid I should just pursue my secondary ed degree and teach because I enjoyed it and the hours were good, ha...I told her it wasn't that easy because nursing was my passion...Sorry for the novel everyone....I've NEVER opened up to anyone else about this besides my immediate family and addiction physician....I didn't mean to ramble. Any advice or info is greatly appreciated.