hey! i know the feeling! i just graduated last may. i hated the clinicals and i often wondered if this was what i wanted. i still wonder the same question, but everyday makes me glad i did finish and become a nurse. we had some really mean nurses on our clinical floors just like what you are going through. you know the saying - nurses eat their young? well in some cases its true. i started work at the same hospital that i done my clinicals in and those hateful, snotty nurses act the same way to everyone-even their co-workers! so don't let them discourage you!!!! nursing school is very hard and it sounds like you are very interested and care about it, but in the same sentence-(for me anyway) nursing school didn't prepare me for the real world of nursing! it is nothing like nursing school prepared me for. my advice to you is finish school, your doing great!! when you start working as a nurse it will be different, in some ways not better and other ways a whole lot better. most of the time for me it is a whole lot better! i hope that my information has helped you in some way. take care and keep up the good work!!!