Saturnalia

I feel like quitting nursing school every day. I went into nursing because I wanted to make decent money and because I wanted to impress my husband (who at the time, I was separated from and thought that if I could get my life together and do something awesome, that he would love me). We got back together and now I realize that he just wants me to be happy, but here I am in nursing school still. I don't know why I am still in. I truly hate it. I have many anxiety disorders and a heart problem that acts up upon stress, so I spend much of my time suffering physically as well as mentally, because I can't stop beating myself up. I have class on Wednesday and Thursday...I have started dreading those days, as well as being miserable the rest of the week because I know those days are coming. I thought maybe it this was all just a phase and that it would pass, but I have felt this way, everyday, for 2 months now. I know, that's not a long time. I don't know if I'm just super nervous about clinicals and all of that, or if I truly, truly hate it as much as I think I do. I think nursing is a beautiful profession/art. I just think that it would cause me too much stress in life. Living with my anxiety disorders is hard. I am not just talking about being nervous, I have been diagnosed with OCD, GAD, Social Anxiety Disorder, and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I know it's all about fighting your demons, but I do that everyday, anyway. I just wish I could live a peaceful life and not have to fight insane amounts of stress that never goes away. It's not like the fear of something that gets better with exposure therapy. It just doesn't work that way. I don't know what I'm getting at here, I guess I just want some feedback.

Help!

I'm sorry! I can relate to what you said though. Do you have test anxiety? I do and it has really messed me up on tests even when I KNOW the material. Having confidence about knowing the material really does help with that. Can you get your test back and look at what you missed? Maybe you can notice what went wrong...whether it was just material you didn't know or something else. Keep your head up, I think this sort of thing happens to almost all of us. While it can be quite discouraging, don't let it keep you under!

I think Continuing Education is good for ANY field!