For someone that states you have low self esteem I find it interesting that you describe yourself as "extremely smart", "attractive", "try to do everything perfectly", etc. I agree with some of the other posts that you may indeed be being bullied somewhat, but I wonder if your preceptions are reality? It's also interesting that your whole life inside and outside of work has "people bullying you" or upset with you...maybe it really is time to work on yourself and figure out if you are contributing to your own unhappy existence