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Pavu!! Congratulations!! You must be ecstatic - to succeed on your final try! I am so PROUD of you. I passed too! I passed! I can't believe it - I'm crying!

Oh, you guys, I'm smiling from ear to ear for you....... I'm SO HAPPY for you. I can't wait to get home and check. Thanks!!!!!!!!!!!

CONGRATS!!! Where in Ontario?

This wait, frankly, sucks.

No news yet in Toronto.

You are in my thoughts and prayers, pavu. Yours will be the first response I look for when people are posting their results on here. Please let us know what the outcome is. I can't imagine how stressed you must be -- if this was your last chance to write the exam. :S I'd be very scared, wondering. I'm sending positive thoughts your way!

Hi pavu, Sure. "Entitled to Practice With Restrictions" (and the restriction being: I can only work as a RN in the place of my employment, as per the regulations of a temporary licence holder). And this is the status of the licence (status is current, the date I activated the license, and the date it has become inactive [which is blank, meaning that I either haven't failed, or they haven't gotten the results processed yet]: [TABLE=class: details04] [TR] CategoryClassStatusFromToSource[/TR] [TR] [TD]RN[/TD] [TD]Temporary[/TD] [TD]Current[/TD] [TD] 26-Sep-2012[/TD] [/TR] [/TABLE]

Nothing yet in Toronto. Probably won't arrive by mail until next week, unfortunately. One thing to do: I keep checking the CNO website. If you've registered in the temporary class, their website will be the first place that will be updated if you've failed. You'll no longer be entitled to practice. So far, my entitlement to practice has not changed. Good luck, everyone. My prayers are with you all during this highly anxious time.

Stressful. The exam was more challenging than I expected it to be. There were a lot of knowledge based questions, which didn't bother me (although I know that I certainly got several of those wrong) -- it was the vagueness, the ambiguity, the dozens upon dozens of questions that had two equally applicable/ ridiculous options to choose from. I was a straight A student throughout my degree. This is the first time that I have been completely shaken in my confidence after an exam. I've always been paranoid about the possibility of failure (it helped me be a better student, I think), but I've never been so completely terrified of it -- and humbled by it -- as I am tonight. And for those of us that wrote today in Ontario, this is a bad time to fail, what with the requirements to be eligible to write the exam changing in January (re: the jurisprudence exam). We HAVE to pass, or we get a whole set of requirements added to our plates that were not fully included in formal teaching. I am already having a nervous breakdown, waiting for November. I'm convinced I failed.

there is... elegance to this. sometimes, platitudes are in place for a reason. thank you. i am humbled. i hear what you are saying. i know it's true. but, i also wanted to do a masters, or perhaps np. my grades have seriously suffered in the year that is most important to these programs, where you need a b average or better in your last year in order to gain admission. and, i know. i have a b average. but, i would have been likely guaranteed admission prior. now -- not so much. but, i know. whining about something i cannot change. move forward. gotta pay rent, so no. but, maybe that movie thing would be a good idea. :) thank you. you have been so kind. aw, crap. this made me cry like a child. thank you. thank you. truly. i think this advice -- being kind to myself, and grntea's advice about letting go -- i have to do this, or die. you're right. i wish that i had something better to say, or more profound. but you're simply, truly right. thank you, all of you. this 'anonymous nursing forum' has given me exactly what i needed: validation, understanding, and the knowledge that it's okay to move forward at a crawl if that's what is going to get me to the end.

In my final year of my BScN. Been diagnosed with a bunch of stuff within the last year, namely borderline personality, major depression, anorexia nervosa. Finding that I cannot cope anymore. Was a straight A student. Now getting Bs. I know that I'm currently in the middle of a major depressive episode, but the knowledge doesn't make the symptoms easier to bear. My psychiatrist can only offer me SSRIs/SNRIs at this point, which I am not taking because of a horrible experience with SSRI discontinuation syndrome that almost made me drop out last year. My clinical rotation is extremely stressful; combining it with my other courses and my job on the weekends is threatening to rip my brain to tiny little pieces. I dread going to clinical, I feel dissociated and terrified whenever I am there, and my course work is falling apart. I can't concentrate, I can't get motivated; when I have to write my papers, I sit and stare at a blank screen for hours. Insomnia is rampant. I don't know what I'm asking for, here. Maybe some sort of reassurance that things will get better once the stressor of school is out of my life? I'm starting to become really frightened of the the possibility that I should not be a nurse. Not like this. Nursing is about passion, strength, intelligence, and grace. I'm just an exhausted and empty ghost wandering the halls.

Thanks for the reply, and the thoughtful answer. My question to you: What would you tell the daughter if she asked you what was wrong with her?

I've recently encountered a bit of an ethical dilemma at work. For the first time, I had to float on a pediatric oncology ward, and I read in the chart history of one of my patients that the nursing and medical staff had to deal with her parents asking them not to reveal the diagnosis of leukemia to their daughter. How it was resolved was not clear in the notes, and I did not have time to read the entire history. It occurred to me to come on the forum and ask: what would you have done? Here in Canada, the age of a child is until 16. This patient was 9. Putting the logistics of the daughter already being on a cancer ward and surrounded by other children with cancer aside, how would you deal with this request? Obviously, we need to advocate for the daughter, and gently remind the parents that children are very perceptive and generally immediately know when there is something wrong. But if they were adamant? Thank you in advance for any responses.:redbeathe

I have schizoid personality disorder. PD aren't talked about much in nursing, and I believe, in general (and also concluded from having read this entire thread), most of the mental health issues within nursing revolve around mood and anxiety disorders.

As a Canadian citizen, I wish you well on this quest. However, I would caution you to rethink your statement. While politics and religion may not as superimposed as they may be in the States, the connotations and mores of each as a unified concept do exist, and can be significant. As a fellow LGBT nurse, I have experienced this in the Canadian setting. Gender, sexuality, and religion are just as entwined here as they may be in the States; it is for this very reason that I have never come out. I have seen troublesome outcomes occur to my LGBT colleagues after publically stating their orientations; please exercise caution. It doesn't matter what flag flies over your head -- people are people everywhere.