Yesterday, I was at my clinicals in a hospital. I was up there by 7 to listen to report. There were 3 nurses working on the floor and 1 CNA at the time (1 CNA arrived later). The two nurses in the report room were taken by my classmates. I could not find the other nurse so I asked my classmate if he knows her. He pointed me out to her and asked her if she didnt mind working we a student. She said no. So i went on and tagged along with her. I then proceeded to pick my 3 patients and I told her from that time till 0900, I am taking information on the patient that I picked. So while I was taking info on my patients, she asked if I could start an IV. I of course said yes. I couldnt pass up that opportuniy. I assessed that patient and removed his old IV. Not realizing the time, I told her I wouldn't be able to do the IV because I havent even finished getting info on my first patient. You can see on her that she was ticked-off. She asked me what else I can do. I said I can pass meds, draw blood, start IV, PICC dressing, etc..So after I got all my info for my 3 patients, me and my classmates start packing up to head to our pre-conference downstairs and I let my nurse know that we will be back after the conference. She told me that by the time I am up there, everything will be done. So I told myself I am sure there will be other meds to pass later. So we went downstairs, gave report to our instructor, and went back. When we got back, I went into one of my patients room to introduce myself. After I did that, she called me and started asking me what is wrong with that patient. I told her exactly what I know but it wasn't enough for her. She wanted me to look it up which I did and still wasnt convinced at what I told her. I even put it in my own words that I can understand it but still she didnt like it. So that whole time I was there, she wanted me to be next to her and watch her how things ARE supposed to be done. I asked her if I can go assess my patients. She told me I couldnt because I dont know what my patients have. In my head, I said I have the info here so I have a general idea why my patient is here. Then she proceeded to ask me what Have I done so far...I said to her that not much besides introducing myself to the patient. She said thats not good enough. She asked what block of nursing I was in and said block 3. Then she told me I should be able to do more since I am so far along. I wanted to answer so bad but I kept my mouth shut. I calmly told her if I can go ahead assess my patients now. She said no. So i got stuck next to her or when there is a nurse doing something she thinks I havent seen, shell tell me to go to that nurse. Then few minutes later, she pulled me to the side and told me exactly this : 'If an employer interviews you, do you think you'll get hired based on what you have done so far today?' I told her no. But in my head I told myself 'its because you wouldnt let me assess my patient so I can take care of them. Was it her place to tell me that? After that I couldn't take it anymore so I told her i am going to lunch and talked to my instructor downstairs. I found out she also talked to her about me not wanting to do anything. I was like WHAT????? I asked her if i can do this and this but she wouldnt allow me. My classmates that were with me saw the whole t hing too so my instructor knew I wasnt lying. I told her everything that had happend and then I broke down. I couldnt take it anymore of what she told me. I pretty much vented on my instructor and my other classmates. I felt bad but I rather take it out before I head back upstairs. My instructor said she should not have said that I am un-hirable base on my work today. That was not her place to say that. So to fix things up, she placed me on another unit with my other classmates. I went up there and I was able to do more like PICC ressing change, IV d/c and some other things that that nurse wouldnt let me. I felt better towards the end of the day. My classmates told me to not let it get through me. Well it did for a bit and I just cannot seem to let it go. It is almost playing in my head constantly what happened that day. Can you guys tell me on what I should do with this kind of situation. Any response will be helpful. Thank you for listening to my venting.
