rustie

There are no right answers in this case. You told her what you and she both wanted/needed to hear. This gave her the ability to be calm at a critical time. That can also give someone the wherewithall to fight. I know it is hard to get some things out of your head and telling you to is futile but each time you think about it you have to think of all the good things you have done and know that you did what you had to do.

I understand your dismay. I work on Tele and we run our own codes. We are the designated step down unit for the open heart & get Patients directly from the cath lab. My first week two years ago was just like yours. I was petrified but I survived. I was able to because I asked for help and talked with my co-workers. They all had stories of how awful things could be even after years of experience. Good luck to you.