Jovichick

I worked for about 11 months on my first unit. I had to get out, it was mentally killing me. I needed out for my own health.

No, our unit clerk wouldn't overstep their bounds, but they did treat me and the other newbies with alot of attitude.

Here's my first med error. I do suffer from anxiety issues. Nothing would make my mind draw a blank more than when my preceptor would stand right next to me and stare at my face as I was trying to think. 2 of my patients were to receive IV Mg. I ended giving Mg to one of the wrong pt's. Nothing happened. But WHY did my preceptor stand there and watch me go into the wrong pt's room with it???? After it happened I went into the unit managers office with my preceptor and clinician. I felt so stupid. I didn't cry to them, but it was so embarrassing.

My first nursing job has been a nightmare for me too. I left my floor after almost a year, took about a month off to rest my mind and body. I needed the time off to regroup myself and really try to find that ideal unit for me. I have 2 interviews coming up. My excuse for leaving is "Distance from home." There's no way I could really say why I didn't like my job, that would make me look horrible and I would be labeled. I was made fun of and embarrassed countless number of times. The staff just was not accepting of myself and the others that started with me. The other girls that started with me have already found jobs on other units. I took the position I did because I was unsure of what I really wanted, and HR suggested that unit, AND that unit has one of the highest turnover rates. As I read through the First Year in Nursing forum, I see so many people like me. We are not alone. Why do other nurses have to make it hell for us? All I wish for is to find a unit with nice staff. I don't want to drive to work anymore hating it. I too have wished sometimes to get into a fender bender so I could miss work. Why must it be so hard. Why can't other be nice and accepting. All I want to do is take care of people, and enjoy those I work with.

Transplant stepdown unit

"have so much fear. I am scared of being a "real" nurse, scared of asking a dumb questions, sounding dumb, looking dumb, afraid to talk to residents and doctors." Honey, you sound like a clone of me. That's EXACTELY how I feel. It's gonna take a while, but we'll get through it. I am so paranoid about looking dumb to others, it's eating me alive.

Hello everyone, Well I just took boards for the first time a few weeks ago, and wasn't lucky. Being demoted from GN to nurse intern is a real kick in the butt. The 2 other GN's that started with me, passed boards on the first try. This is of course one of the biggest setbacks in my little life so far. It's so hard to explain to the doc's and anyone else who were getting to know me, that I can't do what their asking b/c I'm not the nurse anymore. I'm on a busy transplant unit, and transplant patients are among the sickest right??? So if it's super hard, especially for a baby nurse, that's totally expected right??