My first nursing job has been a nightmare for me too. I left my floor after almost a year, took about a month off to rest my mind and body. I needed the time off to regroup myself and really try to find that ideal unit for me. I have 2 interviews coming up. My excuse for leaving is "Distance from home." There's no way I could really say why I didn't like my job, that would make me look horrible and I would be labeled. I was made fun of and embarrassed countless number of times. The staff just was not accepting of myself and the others that started with me. The other girls that started with me have already found jobs on other units. I took the position I did because I was unsure of what I really wanted, and HR suggested that unit, AND that unit has one of the highest turnover rates. As I read through the First Year in Nursing forum, I see so many people like me. We are not alone. Why do other nurses have to make it hell for us? All I wish for is to find a unit with nice staff. I don't want to drive to work anymore hating it. I too have wished sometimes to get into a fender bender so I could miss work. Why must it be so hard. Why can't other be nice and accepting. All I want to do is take care of people, and enjoy those I work with.