04/04/1950's

Your story is painful to read;I can't imagine how difficult it is to be involved in! You will not be able to fix the mess. There are times when walking away is the most reasonable decision to make. Staying there and trying to do the impossible will cause you to compromise who you are.Before anything happens that you regret, resign. Do not give them two weeks notice either. You shouldn't be counted as staff during your orientation. Did you have a mentor at the practical nursing program you attended, or someone else you like and trust? I might consider talking with a professor or mentor about making a contact with the agency who regulates this LTC . But I would talk that over with an RN from the program I graduated from first. There are good places to work and you'll find one. This is not it.

Elsheva, Thanks for writing. Just like you I left nursing a long while ago but I am returning. I spent 14 years as an LPN in special care units and ICU's. When I graduated from an RN program I had too much fear and too little confindance. My home life was chaos no matter what I did to make it better including therapy. It brought me down by making me more vulnerable. Just like you I've made substantial changes. This partner and I have a good marriage. I don't know if you might benifit from talking to a professional about your anxiety, but I did. Caring for my mental health is very important to me. I taught diabetics the need for insulin, exercise and good diet and I must abide by the same rules. Just like you when I return to nursing I have every intention of projecting the confidance, wisdom and courage that I have. We all know how important it is. There are many nurses who are wonderfully supportive but I've not always had an opportunity to work with them. Just as we have to take good care of the patients assigned to us, we must work well with those who are part of the team, even when the team is feeling mean. There were times in report (I worked ICU as an RN) that I thought "oh no" but as soon as I walked into room and saw the person who was my patient I was always glad to be there in that room as a nurse. Always. Keep us posted. You will do well. 04/04/1950's

Hello XOMANDALIZED, I went to Delhi program and graduated in 1991. So, where to start. Feel free to PM me anytime. It is a tough program emotionally. It shouldn't be but it is. You need to take good care of yourself and don't take things personally. I worked hard and struggled as an adult student who had been an LPN for a long time.It became clear to me that some of the Prof did not want to know about past experiences, so I kept quiet. Do you have an advisor? Are you living on campus? Keeping up with the reading? Getting outside in the sunshine? If there is anyway I can be supportive please let me know. "This too shall pass." Hugs Claudia 04/04/1950's

Tulip, how did you prepare yourself for a return to nursing after 15 years of not nursing? :pumpiron: 04/04/1950's

Hello, It's been 10 years since I worked in hospital nursing and I yearn to return. I was an LPN for many years, went to college for Psychology and then enrolled in a 2 year school and got my RN. Worked in small hospitals in very very rural area. Always worked in Special Care Unit or ICU. I loved bedside nursing. Had my ACLS. I made an error. Patient was ok, I've never been ok. Humiliated, 2 years probation and fired. I still cry. But I understand myself and what I can and can't do. I want to return this Fall to nursing. How do nurses with my experience return? I know I will travel to a city to find a job. I want to do a different type of nursing and use my experiences of successes and mistakes. I want to begin again. But what Nurse Manager would hire me? How do I write a resume? I'm so glad to have found this site. Sincerely, Claudia 04/04/1950's