First of all, I respect you sharing your topic. These are normal emotions and stress in nursing and life is quite common. Think back why you became a nurse, Hormones and stress levels that do not stabilize or return to homeostasis cause imbalances. You have the right to endure personal goals, enjoy a quality of life and have a family. I believe you can find a way to balance everything. Sometimes slowing down a bit, taking quiet time to renew, smell the fresh air, focus or rethink what is best for your happiness and well being will allow you to visualize a beautiful and positive picture you deserve. It is there if you just relax without anger, regret or remorse of what you have accomplished thus far. What are your passions? Also, are there other fertility clinics, Naturopathic/Holistic approach for you and Husband with OB/GYN or healthy, nutrition options without this outrageous $$. You endured so much in your career and simply need to use that strength, have faith and look outside the box for other natural alternatives and not allow what appears to be overwhelming to overtake your dreams and aspirations. Again, thanks for sharing and I truly hope you are blessed with a healthy, happy life. Monica