Hey that's OK . Perfectly okay to feel that way darling . Take a deep breath . I tell you my story . I hated nursing in grad school .I was an average student but then during my post grad days I explored that I love ICU . I love those everyday challenges it took 5 years after my grad school when I fell in love with nursing . I became AP in college ,started teaching new grads and post grads.
And on one fine day nursing helped me to travel abroad get my permanent residency. I got my first Job in Abroad during pandemic and that too in a long term facility .
I was doing exceptionally good ,even when I was not liking nursing as I used to like working for radio as a host. But still - I respect that nursing gave me job. I earned and saved ,it is the same money I spent on migrating to new country as permanent resident ,it is the same money which helped me in investing into my career abroad.
Darling even if you do not like nursing - take it as a job and give your best to it. Jobs are hardly fancy until you are a business tycoon or so.
WE NEED MONEY AND FOR THAT WE NEED A JOB - its necessity .
And if you think you are willing to switch career ,please go ahead do that . What if you would feel same emptiness again ?
learn to embrace it- develop a hobby ,hang out with friends. Stay optimistic.