im a new grad nurse and am in terrible need in of some advice. Please any advice is welcome!
I just started orienting on my floor 2 nights ago. & I have to say I am already bombing it. My first night was ok but the second night I was orienting on a PCU & that's where things went bad.
To get to the down and dirty I was an absolute mess. I slowed my preceptor down considerably. Like to the point that I think she may be missing some things because of me. I charted on one patient and managed to miss key components on that. & it's not from not knowing about the pt. It's mostly because idk how to work the darn charting system. In clinicals they had Cerner system which was SUPER easy to use. This hospital uses meditech & I'm struggling tryna figure where everything is.
On top of that, I feel like my hand has to be pretty much held. I don't think I'm making the transition from nursing student well. I've made med calculation errors ( I always review with my preceptor tho), messed up on looking up what meds should be given at a certain time, but the point is I miss key things. I can't look thru 6 pt orders on a chart that I barely know as fast as I should yet. Therefore since i don't have time to look thru everything, I barely know what's going on.
I just feel like I'm too slow of a learner & perhaps acute care isn't for me. I mean I couldn't even put the yankauer to the suction on correctly, I'm struggling with how to use the pumps, how to run the meds, how to set up tube feedings. just all the simple stuff a nurse should know. Today my preceptor told me I wouldn't be getting not even ONE pt to myself. Mind you its my first week but I can't even progress to one pt. Most ppl at least make it to 3. I wouldn't be surprised if they fired me in this week.
my preceptor is pretty nice. But you know how gossip is, especially in a hospital. & I feel like I'm just following her everywhere & ppl are looking at me like "why are you following her every footstep".
even the patients can tell I'm new, which is bad. Has anyone else been in this situation? Should I request to go to a slower unit ( this floor is known to be the hardest floor in the hospital), or should I just try to work somewhere else entirely? I want to be good at this and work in a hospital! but I really starting to understand if ain't meant for ya , it ain't meant for ya.