Emilyallen

Hi! I saw your post as I was searching for someone who went through this process. I just sent my check and TX verification form to CA today so they can verify my old CA license to TX for my permanent TX license process. When did CA finally verify your license to TX? My temp license expires end of July, and I am worried CA won't send the form in time. I have everything else done for the TX license but that. Let me know when you get a chance! Thank you!

Oh man. Thanks for the feedback!

I just sent my form in as well for CA verification to get a license in another state. Have is gone through for you yet? Hope so! Let me know how long it took if so! Thanks!

Thank you so much for sharing. That must have been very difficult. I find that talking about such events with non-nursing friends or outsiders sometimes makes coping worse since they do not understand the details and complexity of the situation. It's been a week, and I feel so much better. It helped to get back to work this week. I now know there is nothing I could have done to have changed the baby's outcome. For some reason, I was scheduled to work that day, be assigned to that patient, and have that experience. All I can do is move forward and continue to do my job to the best of my ability. I will always remember holding the rattle in front of him before I last left the room, and him trying to reach up and touch it. We have the most special job that only we can understand. I really feel so lucky.

Ok. thank you again for making me feel better. It really means a lot.

Thank you for your kind words. I really appreciate it. I feel better today. The patient was on telemetry which is monitored by two other nurses in another room. They said there were no dysrythmias prior to this event. He was on a pulse ox which was not picking up when mom called me into the room. She said she had been trying to untangle him from the leads after she tried to give him a bottle. He was sating in the mid 80s all morning which was his baseline. I will never know how long the pulse ox monitor was off. He had had hx of dysphagia but had been cleared for thin liquids for almost a month. I know you said it's unlikely but I keep thinking about the 3cc of water I mixed with crushed aspirin. If he had choked on it, wouldn't it have happened right away when I was there?

I am a travel nurse and just started a new assignment 3 weeks ago. I had a cardiac 3 month old patient with HLHS yesterday admitted for poor po intake and dehydration. The patient was stable all morning (VSS & adequate fluid balance) until he suddenly had a seizure and stopped breathing. Mom saw me in the hall and called me into the room. I grabbed another nurse and we called the code. The patient was intubated and I transferred him to the ICU only to find out that he coded again when the MD was attempting an arterial line placement. They could not get his heart rate back up, and he died. I have been crying and in bed all day because I'm so worried I missed something with my assessment and feel so guilty I wasn't in the room with mom when he seized. No one knows why this happened. I had given him his crushed aspirin and water about 30 mins before, and all I can think about is him aspirating on it and causing him to seize. He was alert though before I left the room and looking at his rattle I was holding in front of him. I feel so incredibly guilty and responsible since I was his nurse. The code was so awful because I am new and still don't know anyones names. I feel so alone and don't know how to cope with this. Please help.

I am a travel nurse and just started a new assignment 3 weeks ago. I had a cardiac 3 month old patient with HLHS yesterday admitted for poor po intake and dehydration. The patient was stable all morning until he suddenly had a seizure and stopped breathing. Mom saw me in the hall and called me into the room. I grabbed another nurse and we called the code. The patient was intubated and I transferred him to the ICU only to find out that he coded again when the MD was attempting an arterial line placement. They could not get his heart rate back up, and he died. I have been crying and in bed all day because I'm so worried I missed something with my assessment and feel so guilty I wasn't in the room with mom when he seized. No one knows why this happened.I had given him his crushed aspirin and water about 30 mins before, and all I can think about is him aspirating on it and causing him to seize. He was alert though before I left the room and looking at his rattle I was holding in front of him. I feel so incredibly guilty and responsible since I was his nurse. The code was so awful because I am new and still don't know anyones names. I feel so alone and don't know how to cope with this. Please help.