New grad, LTC facility

Hello,

So I accepted casual position for a long term care facility as new grad...kinda..(i did not practise for a year). I had two days, two evenings and 1 night for orientation. I had my first shift last week and let me tell you, it was not pleasant. Resident had a fall, residents shouting at me because they were not getting the routine care that were given by regular parttime/full time nurses, psws asking for help, maybe 5 residents had their medication late because I had to give to 25 pts.

All my placements were in hospitals and I did not realize how stressful it is to work in nursing home/ ltc. I don’t know what to do! I am stressed out, I am telling myself, is it worth it? Did I make a mistake in choosing nursing? The only reason I chose this position was because I was not getting any jobs. I like providing care to pts, it is very rewarding.

I keep getting text msgs to pick up shifts but I am so scared I dont even respond to it even though I am avaliable to work.

Any advice? :’(