Monday October 13th 2025

Good morning!

I didn't log on yesterday so didn't know the site was down.  

I ordered Taco Bell delivery on Thursday after a long shift.  Since I lost some weight I've been justifying eating crappy.  

Yesterday wasn't a horrible day at work but they did pull a nurse to another unit.  

Since I've already been oversharing, I'll keep oversharing.  My GI texted me today that the test I sent on Friday came back negative for infection.  It's a relief finally.  The mystery though now is I'm still having symptoms but fingers crossed that I'll be getting better with more time.  I'll be scheduling a follow up for next month.

Normal day off for me.  The air is noticeably less humid these past few days which is a pleasure.  

I have skrooed up my laptop and now I cannot get back to practically anything!  I was surprised I could get onto my Yahoo site and all nurses. The thing is I forgot my password(s) to many of the sites and the laptop would not let me back on line; So I thought I was being SMAHT and tried to fix things but ended up making it worse. However, the good news is I somehow got back here (Thank God!) but I hope nobody wants my password.

I had an exceptionally TERRIBLE lousy weekend and nearly lost my mind feeling mad and crazy and hating everything. I must've done 6,305,853 loads of laundry in 3 days, and SiL called last night and said she couldn't come get Nannie this morning so could I get up and get her ready for BiL to come this AM and take her to daycare. Unfortunately that was the last of the last straws, and when she started apologizing and explaining it, I said "Don't worry about it; I'll talk with you later," and I abruptly hung up. 

I was getting Nannie's supper ready when she called, I was p.o'd about my laptop, I was feeling VERY uncared for myself (even by my own self), as I get very tiny smidgeons of time off. I am so sick of sitting with Nannie EVERY SINGLE EVENING and never having, like a weekend, or not having to put her to bed every night, and get her up 5-6 days of the week and making her supper and washing her dishes and her clothes and bedding. I was never meant to be a housewife or maid. I am just a burned out care giver who DOES NOT CARE ANYMORE! Besides which her speech is getting more confused and garbled, but does that stop her from talking? Three guesses, and all of them should be NO!

I think I might know someone who could help me out with the computer mess I have created, but I haven't called him yet. I;d take it to a computer magician place, but I am smack-dab out of $$$ and besides which I put 4 of my credit cards on hold until I can get them paid down. So, it's me and Tinker together against this too little, too tight, too unfriendly world where we reside. And so there is nowhere to go and no one to see.

At least now, being able to grouse and get crabby here wif you'n's helps keep me off the ceiling, and that's more than I had this morning.

I'm sure hopeful I'll be back..... in spite of the horrorscope which says my Mercury currently has me in a straitjacket or some such nonsense like that. Anyway I hope it all CHANGES me to a new 'promising time in my life!' ? ?

I was sooooooo beside myself last night and trying so hard not to take it out on Nannie who was being QUITE IMPOSSIBLE, that I actually smoked 5 cigarettes, after having gone a whole entire week of passing them up on purpose.  CUSS-cuss-cuss-cuss.

Over and out for now.

PS: I accidentally POWER WASHED the computer is how I ended up between the rock and the hard place. I was so stewpitt!

I forgot to add that when I went into Nannie's room this morning, she was sitting on the floor and had her right tan shoe on her left foot and her blue left shoe on her right foot and she was holding her maroon shoes and just sitting there. "How long have you been on the floor?" ...."Oh, a good while, I guess.".....I had to call BiL to come help me get her up. ? Ain't we got fun?

I've done next to nothing today, except go for a long walk. It's sunny but very windy. The baseball game started at 2 today, so that has been the focus of my attention. It will be over with before dark, and I will finish up filling the yard waste tote for tomorrow morning. I've started exercising along to a YouTube channel, and I am sore. 
Justing post a picture of a maple tree turning color. 

Found out why my laptop (WiFi) was skroowed up. See, BiL had taken over paying the bills here, and he and SiL had decided to change their WiFi and Cable, I don't know if it was to or from the WiFi and Cable here at this house. Somehow the company then got the wrong person cancelled and when the ones they cancelled called and complained,  the company then straightened it all out and we were back on the cable and WiFi again. It doesn't make a lot of sense the way I explained it, but I am DEEEElighted to be back on both. 

Nannie is walking with one of her hips higher than the other, but denies any kind of pain other than her neck aching, which is one of her constant complaints because she falls asleep in the recliner and her head hangs over onto her right shoulder. I am always re-positioning her and propping her up one way or another. Then once she is comfortable she starts moving around .....something she seldom does on her own. Well, then she un-does what I did to make her more comfortable. Frustrating for me! I'm more surprised she has no indication of any kind of pressure sores wanting to form, that is how STILL she usually sits.  I don't know if this posture change of her hips is a result of her being on the floor this morning or not, but I wonder if she should be x-rayed. She actually slid off the edge of her bed and didn't FALL-fall. I'll have to keep an eye on her tomorrow. Right now she is totally conked out because I gave her Tylenol for her neck pain, and it works MUCH better than any kind of nerve medicines or sleeping pills. She comes around from the Tylenol several hours after she takes it, when I harass her enough to make her open her eyes and get ready to walk into the bathroom and then into the bedroom. She always tries to get me to let her continue sleeping in the recliner, which I NEVER let her do any more, as she has that bad habit of trying to get up on her own, and she slides so she is sitting on the footrest, which is bound to buckle under her weight sooner or later. 

Blah-blah-BLEH! I'm through here for now.

I'm having some neck pain and took some Tylenol myself.  Wonder if it's referred from the shots I got today.  Decided to get both covid and flu.  Got a $10 off $20 spent at CVS and picked up some items and saved $10

Dumb *** me forgot my bowling ball and realized after the last exit going to Tampa and had to cross all of Tampa Bay and come back.  Annoying.  Haven't done that in a long time.  

Best friend is settling into unpacking and hanging up pictures and stuff in his condo.  I'm going over to help him with some stuff tomorrow and he's making lunch. 

I can tell he's getting frustrated with my condition.  "Are you sure your doc knows what you're going through and not getting better?".   He definitely does and I told him again today when talking about my negative results.  He's the one that goes to the doctor every ailment and tells his doc every little thing from head to toe, and thinks I should constantly be going to the doctor saying I'm not getting better and he should fix me.  Anyway, I am having a good day GI wise today and usually when I say that, I have a relapse, so I shouldn't say it out loud.  By good day I mean no Immodium. LOL

Glad Dianah slept well.

Good pic J22.  Florida of course has no colors but we are enjoying some lower humidity and sunny gorgeous days.