Monday June 16th 2025

Good morning!

Not sleeping well these days.  I wake up in the early AM and have trouble falling back asleep and wake up several times.  Bleh....I have laundry to do today as well and it's clean the bathroom day.

Had a productive day yesterday in that I did one load of laundry and mowed the grass after yoga.  Otherwise was a quiet day.  

Was putting away some stuff and ran across several old journals and I thumbed through some.  Some were as far back as 1986 before nursing when I was struggling.  I recognize that kid but also seems like another person.  I can see even then I was stubborn and trying to grow.  Given how long I've been at it, I should be a Zen monk by now.  LOL

It can be ... interesting... to read old journals. I remember finding one a few years ago and thinking that several MORE years ago I was struggling with the same things that I was in the more recent time. And that's true today. 

When I told Hubs that my plan for dinner was "breakfast" -- bacon, eggs, hashbrowns, and pancakes -- he said that sounded like a messy kitchen and, besides, he wanted a milkshake. So we ordered chicken sandwiches and shakes from Braum's, an Oklahoma chain of ice cream stores. That was his Fathers Day treat.

I again accomplished very little over the weekend. I noticed last night that the place on my lower leg where I've had a large bruise for a couple of weeks now feels like there is a palpable cord. Could it be a superficial vein thrombosis? It is close to the one small varicosity that popped up during my pregnancy (31 years ago). I tried to schedule an appointment with my doctor but they told me that since they don't have ultrasound I should go somewhere else. I'm really not sure it warrants a visit to the ER. Couldn't they refer me for an outpatient U/S? 

This doesn't bode well for outside activities: 83 degrees with a 'feels like' of 101 degrees and humidity at 78%, Rain predicted for this evening.

I do have to go to the pharmacy....they sent me a text that I have 2 refills ready and they will cost $0.00. Don't know what they are and why there is no charge, but I will find out when I get over there.

Woke up with that lower back pain once again. I'm wondering if it's like the return of a thingy ... like, I mean, you know, a  growth pressing on a lumbar vertebra nerve for which I had an ablation done years ago .... I dunno. They did say it "might" grow back. That is pretty darn rude, if that's what it is. But don't feel like doing the appointment with the spine doc and then an MRI, and then.... I suppose if it keeps it up I will have to go through all that again. It wasn't a bad procedure, but the whole thing would be a P-I-A right now, timing-wise. 

Don't want to jinx myself, but after resting with my back and hip in a stretched position, the pain has reduced somewhat.

Oh shoot! I just remembered that I have to go through Belk's and JCPenney's to see if I can find the least objectionable and least expensive solution to the "What will I wear to niece's wedding this coming Saturday" problem. BLECH.

My latest 'new' haircut, after sleeping on it last night, has decided to look stoopit today. But y'know what? All I did was sing to it: "You can go your own way [go your own way] You can call it another lousy hair-day...." ppfftt!

Guess I ort to jes' git along wif mah biznezz, so tawk whichoo's laydah. ?

( Yeh, and I also have to return some overdue books to the library, go to the bank, etc.  and I should do my laundry, too. There aren't enough hours in the day or days in a week to get everything done. I am so good at blowing things off.....and, do you know that those dishes in the sink never did wash themselves yet?.....)

Ado Annie said:

I tried to schedule an appointment with my doctor but they told me that since they don't have ultrasound I should go somewhere else. I'm really not sure it warrants a visit to the ER. Couldn't they refer me for an outpatient U/S? 

Of course they can.  If they want an ultrasound they can write a prescription or send an electronic order somewhere.  At least that's how it's done here.  Or they should see you in person and see it in their opinion it warrants an ultrasound.  They let you down.  

Took me a long time to get motivated but I made it to the gym and grocery store.  I'll have some lunch and get started on some other things.  

Yeah, I've been thinking about changing anyway. It's too far away and they are always so busy and not very responsive. It's just that it's a hassle to make the change. But I think I should.

Finally got granddaughter's grad card and gift in the mail. I have a book to pick up from the library. Tomorrow night the book club meets (naturally, in NW OKC). I've been meaning to call my sister. She marked herself "safe" from the San Antonio flooding on Facebook. But I have not talked to her in a while so I feel like I should.

Ugh. OK. Got the  shopping done, sort of.....I got three different blouses to choose from, depending on what pants I'm going to wear. They are summery, light weight, with sleeves that won't be oppressive at the wedding. (because I will not wear sleeveless blouses) It is supposed to be somewhere around 91 to 93 Saturday and I don't know if the church has AC or not. I also, amazingly enough, found a pair of flats that fit me okay. They are not walking-every-day kind of shoes, but they will do as what an old friend's mother used to refer to as "Look-at-me" shoes.....like the dolls they had that they could look at, but not actively PLAY with. I do have to go find some knee-high stockings and MAY end up searching out and buying a different pair of pants, because I have not yet tried on either pair I was thinking of using, While I was perusing the clothing, I sighed and muttered, saying under my breath, "I HATE shopping!" And the lady nearby smiled at me. It looked like SHE was really enjoying her shopping, because she had a PILE of clothes in her basket. Better her than me. My sister and Chatty CG are two who really like to shop; I know I'e told you before of having to drag along after my sister in Boston, where the Filene's dept. store was FOUR stories, PLUS she always had to 'do' the basement where everything was on sale. And she had to look at everything! And I kept saying "Can we go home now?" and "Aren't you through YET?"

Anyway, I am sitting here anticipating Nannie's return. Not too very w00t, if ya know what I mean.

No welcoming, yapping dog here when I got home. ? Feels weird. This is gonna take time, I can tell.

SiL had said she was going to give me $100 to find something to wear to the wedding., but, ummmmm, she left me $75. When I purchased the stuff I went ahead and signed up for a credit card at each store (Penney's and Belk's) because one gave me 25% off and the other gave me 40% off. I went ahead and paid off the Penney's card at the store and will get the bill for Belk's in the mail. But adding the two store receipts together, they said I ended up saving $180.02, so I guess that;s good. I just haven't bought anything except ( at WalMart) jeans, jerseys and socks these past couple of years, so the original prices on the Dept Store clothes were kind of shocking to me.  (ONE blouse was $88 but I got it at half price and then the discount for getting the credit card reduced the price further.) I wondered if I would ever wear any of my purchases again, but it's sort of a moot point. I am not a dressy-dressing up fashionista. But if Nannie croaks when the weather is warm, I am all set.

I was soooo tired and shaky when I got home, I figured I needed to eat. I just had 4 taquitos and dipped 'em in Tzatziki dip. (Mexican and Greek, good stuff; went well together!)

Got home and inside just before the thunder and rain started, but it didn't last very long and the sun is out again, full force. So, I would venture to say it is probably WICKED HUMID out there!

I suppose someone will be toting Nannie here shortly......

This post was done at three separate times, so if I have repeated myself, oh well. I am not together enough in my head to edit and put like-subjects in a sequential manner, 

Well. well. well.

I got two calls at the same time....one was the Sr Ctr wanting to know where I was, because everyone else was gone and they thought I would be getting her this afternoon. SiL was on the other line asking me where I was because the Srl Ctr called her about Nannie not getting picked up. I told them both I did not know I was supposed to pick her up today. (is it not my 'day off'????)

So I ran out and picked her up. I'm going to have to put up a calendar in the kitchen with all the days marked with who is doing what on which day. SiL seems to change it every week, or day by day, according to what she gets scheduled for the ABC store where she is supposedly 'only' working PART-TIME. I had written stuff in my notebook/brain but it didn't say anything about me going to get her at the end of the day today.

Can you see the steam leaking out of the crown of my head?

Temps a little warmer today, up to 70. Dh got the results from his cardiac CT and they're not great. Lots of calcifications. He has some chest pressure when walking up hill, but nothing else. He meets with PA in 2 weeks. My hope is medical management. 
I took the dogs to an upscale pet store for new harnesses they can't wriggle out of. They seemed pricey, but seem very secure. I stopped at a berry farm and got fresh berries for strawberry shortcake. Nom nom. 
Annie, that seems ridiculous that your doc can't order an ultrasound. It's expensive at a hospital. A few years ago I had 2 5 days apart. The free standing clinic cost just the co-pay. The one through the hospital was $500.