Is nursing for me??

[NurseLvnpv]

Hello,

I am a new grad LVN with less than 6 months experience. I passed nclex December of 2017 and was hired in urgent care shortly after. I. HATED.URGENT.CARE! I lasted 3 months earning their EHR was so Difficult for me (nextgen) but aside from that every patient that would be seen would ALWAYS scream and complain about the wait time (2-4 hours waiting). I honestly felt like a failure of a nurse, all I did was take vitals. My 8 hour shift seemed so looooong and I would feel anxiety and depression before and after every shift which caused me to resign. I applied to an assisted living facility while I had put my 2 weeks in so I began working there right away! I thought this was forsure the place I was meant to work as an Lvn...however (here I go again), I feel like my license is at risk for making a possible medical error. During my training the nurses would tell me to just pop out all the meds (I wouldn't because I wanted to be sure they were routine and not discontinued etc). Some of the residents family members have 1000 thousand questions and I can't seem to finish my work on time. The nurses work through their lunch even while I was training was told to work through mine or they would rush me to return to work. Also I'm terrible at telling people what to do and I'm also in charge of all the caregivers assignments for the shifts, I hate it when they come back to complain and ask why they were assigned certain resident! -.- my leadership skills suck! At this point in my early career I realized nursing really isn't for me !I get so much anxiety, the hours suck, every incoming nurse always shows up late for change of shift report and by that time I'm so over work I feel like walking out, i became an Lvn to care for patients and passionately love what I do but so far I HATE IT. I'm hoping to fall into the department I'm supposed to be in eventually if not I'm considering a career change and forgetting about becoming an RN. Has anyone else felt the same way?? Dodging jobs because they can't seem to find the right one??

Does anyone have tips? I can't be the only one on this boat

[Sour Lemon]

Honestly, your experiences so far are concerning. The jobs you've had sound "easy" compared to nursing home or hospital work. Is it possible that your anxiety and depression were out of control before you started working as a nurse? Being a new graduate is never easy, but quitting a job where you "just take vital signs" because it's too stressful seems to be a bit out of the range of normal.

[OldDude]

I would advise you to NOT shuck the nursing field but I would recommend against becoming a RN at this time in your career. As Sour Lemon alluded to above, it sounds like discussing your emotional self with your doctor would be a logical first step. Best of luck to you!