I need some help

Hi all, I just signed my contract a couple weeks ago. I have since lost my job. now they want me to see therapist after therapist i have lost my insurance. And I cant afford it. I have been a LPN for almost 20 years. I was accused of Diverting Hydrocodone from a patients home. At the time I didn't do this, but I did have a problem with them. I was addicted. The home I was in at the time lets say was less than sketchy. In a pretty bad neighborhood. Anyway when I was confronted with this from my supervisor at the time I was shocked to say the least. But I did admit to being on them at the time, so i guess they couldn't drug test me. but they didn't offer either. I never head anything from them regarding this until about a month later then i lost my job. 1 year later i heard from the state of Michigan and I was going to be investigated. Mind you I had started with another homecare company. I met with the investigator explained the whole situation and admitted to have a problem with them. I went to my PCP who prescribed them to me and was up front and honest and told him i needed off from them. I was put on suboxone and i am on it still. I feel so alone in all this and don't know what to do or where to turn. I am actually thinking about giving up my nursing lic. But what would I do? I'm to old to go back to school, but I also thought about starting my own home caregiving company. I don't know what to do I am at a loss. I do have support from my family. If i did go back to school I would go for medical billing and coding. My head has been spinning I have lost 2 jobs over this now. I just can't afford all of this! I just don't get how they can do this to people and expect them to live. Okay my rant is over. But I really would like some feedback on this. Thank you!!!