So I have been a nurse for 3 years now. I still feel like just a baby in the nursing field. I have moved to a different state and have been working in an urgent care facility for the past 4 months. I had 5 days of training at this job and from then on have been working regularly as the supervisor and only RN. I feel like I learned so much from this job, but I also am made to feel stupid when I don't know "the right answer" or ask a "stupid question". Recently I have made a few dumb mistakes and am feeling incompetent. I feel like I should be able to shake off these mistakes because I face them head on and deal with them in the appropriate manner, but I just can't let them go and I get so upset. I am told by others that these mistakes are minor, but they feel so major to me. I feel as though I have literally just been thrown to the sharks with every nursing job I have had and have just had to learn to swim and deal with getting yelled at and making mistakes. Because I have been thrown into jobs without much aide or training, I don't have any mentors to turn to. I believe myself to be a good nurse, but I have never been this down on myself as a nurse. I have been questioning myself and my career choice. I think I really just need a peer or a mentor to vent to. I don't know if it is just this job or what, but I feel unsupported by my manager and am sick of my nursing peers as they keep playing the blame game or are holier than though bull. I'm just frustrated. Any advice?
So I have been a nurse for 3 years now. I still feel like just a baby in the nursing field. I have moved to a different state and have been working in an urgent care facility for the past 4 months. I had 5 days of training at this job and from then on have been working regularly as the supervisor and only RN. I feel like I learned so much from this job, but I also am made to feel stupid when I don't know "the right answer" or ask a "stupid question". Recently I have made a few dumb mistakes and am feeling incompetent. I feel like I should be able to shake off these mistakes because I face them head on and deal with them in the appropriate manner, but I just can't let them go and I get so upset. I am told by others that these mistakes are minor, but they feel so major to me. I feel as though I have literally just been thrown to the sharks with every nursing job I have had and have just had to learn to swim and deal with getting yelled at and making mistakes. Because I have been thrown into jobs without much aide or training, I don't have any mentors to turn to. I believe myself to be a good nurse, but I have never been this down on myself as a nurse. I have been questioning myself and my career choice. I think I really just need a peer or a mentor to vent to. I don't know if it is just this job or what, but I feel unsupported by my manager and am sick of my nursing peers as they keep playing the blame game or are holier than though bull. I'm just frustrated. Any advice?