Friday May 23rd 2025

Good morning!

Joe, hope today is calm.

I nearly fell out of bed this morning while I was asleep.  Never happened to me before, not sure if I was rolling over or dreaming. I know Waffles kept me close to the edge.  Weird.

Doing some laundry and having breakfast.  Will go to the gym and do some meal prep for the weekend.  Otherwise not much going on today.

Tweety, I think I actually DID fall out of bed once sometime in the last year or two. I know it was kind of weird to wake up on the floor saying "WHAT??" Not something us big kids are known for, really. At least I wasn't physically hurt.

So, I have about 4 + 1/2 hours before Nannie-retrieval. How depressing. Have to go to the grocery store for more of Nannie's puddings and yogurts and cran juice. I can buy 10 to a dozen of them, and they seem to be gone in merely minutes, never mind days! That and the underpads (chux). You wouldn't BELIEVE how heavy a 30 gallon trash bag can get when filled with wet chux and pads. (Nannie wears two pads inside the pull-ups) And little Momo is so cooperative about using her pads, when I put down new ones she is giving each pad "equal time" and dispersing her wastes on EACH pad .... like three little BM's with one 'dump' done in segments on each pad. She has the traveling sh**s, I guess. 

As most usually in the mornings, I don't have the drive or energy to press on with my 'big plans' for the day. But I will get up from this bed-lolling, computer scrolling, and get dressed. Gotta start SOMEWHERE! Am I my own worst enemy in this respect? Ah, well, no, I just don't feel like beating up on myself. The constancy of this situation is oppressive no matter how you slice it. 

BUT I must remain cognizant of the fact that I do NOT have to pay any rent or mortgage payments, especially since I am operating on only one (puny) income instead of two. And I DO get SOME more time off than I used to, anyway, which is nice, however briefly, although filling that time with errands and chores doesn't exactly give ME "real time off-duty." Like I told the doc, most things I might be interested in trying or attending are, so far , scheduled for times and days I do not have 'free'. After 7 PM? Nope. On a day when I do not have just SIT with Nannie? When might THAT be? Or on Week-ends? Nope, not do-able. I sometimes feel like I have Gorilla Glued myself into this situation. Losing faith in SiL's "It;'s all good", and my grandfather's "This too shall pass." And I think, after 9 years I MUST HAVE already earned a halo or two while slogging through this "path of righteousness." And truthfully I don't live up to my previous levels of care I used to expect from myself and used to feel proud of being able to provide for my patients, or even for myself. Used to be when I needed a change, I made that change. Can't see how it's possible at this point in time. This "duration" I said I was here for has turned out to be longer and more involved than I ever dreamed of it being. "They say hindsight's 20/20, but I'm nearly going blind" (Randy Travis)

Okay, see, Tweety, you are not the only one 'dumping' and as y'all tell me, that is absolutely acceptable here among us......thank God! Otherwise, I'd be paying for a 50 minute hour with a psychologist every week.

Time to get ZEN and time to get dressed and get up now

Oh, just got my labs back from the blood draw after the doc's appt. Not too bad, really! My HDL is slightly low and my LDL is slightly high, but the report said they were WNL and "near optimal". And surprisingly my sodium is "perfect", though my potassium is a bit low. Overall, nothing major to be fretting over. And I am mostly already eating the things they listed to help balance out the HDL and LDL to where they are supposed to be, although "near optimal" is not a 'bad' place to be. I DO have a problem sometimes with fried foods, like craving extra-crunchy KFC, extra crispy french-fried tater-tots. Not so big on sweets, but I confess I am a salt-and-french-fried-grease lover. Could be worse. I had a friend once who could never resist buying a dozen donuts which would take her maybe 12 hours to decimate; the first helping was usually 'only' 3 donuts!

Okay, I am partly through being dressed. Get on wif it, gurl! 

I like the fried foods. I like the sweet foods. I also like a lot of healthy foods. 

Hubs has said about caring for Gma that he never expected her to live this long. She just keeps going. And we are less than 5 years into this.

Yesterday was a long day. A 3-hour drive (my coworker drove) to the location, and 8-hr class, and 3-3.5 hr drive home. I stayed home today and plan to take the Monday holiday, too. I need a break. 

Hubs and I have tickets to GalaxyCon in OKC tomorrow, courtesy of Twin B. William Shatner will be there. Not our typical thing to do but maybe it will be fun. 

Oh, yeah.. 

When the cat is cuddling with Hubs, I am pushed to the edge of the bed. I have caught myself at the very edge a time or two.

Gma fell in her room in the middle of the night last night (?) The night before? Twin B was awake and came to get us. She seems fine. 

Speaking of falls, I took a tumble in the wee hours last light. I had been unable to sleep, so I went into the living room to read. After an hour, I switched off the light and took the route to the bedroom in the dark like I have a million times. Except I turned too soon, and stepped out into the stairwell and tumbled to the landing, 7 steps down. I landed on my shoulder, hit my head, and some how twisted my hands under me.  I was able to get up, got ice for the thumb I thought was broken, and went to bed. I let Dh get a little sleep, the we went to ER. Ugh. Head CT, shoulder and hand X-rays, blood work and all they found was a fractured clavicle. 
They put a sling on me, handed me some shoulder exercises and sent me out. I'm to follow up with ortho. They did send in a script for Norco. I took one. Yuck. So the day is shot, I took a nap. Can't do much else, hands hurt and feeling nauseous. 
My labs looked good, although I was a little puzzled that they did a medical alcohol( 8 hrs after the fall) and a drug tox screen. Is that standard or did I just fit the profile? 

I'm so sorry about your fall, J22. I'm not sure why your fall would have triggered the alcohol and drug screen (especially hours later). I agree that taking Norco is yucky. I hope the pain is bearable. A broken clavicle will keep you from doing some of the things you usually do, but you know that. Best wishes for quick healing!

Thank you, Annie. The pain is not as bad as the initial fall.