Feeling discouraged

Hello all,

this is my first time posting in this thread, but I have found encouragement reading the many post. I have decided to follow another path in this profession. I would like to pursue OR nursing. Keeping that in mind my goal is to take the operating room course. I have recently left a very stressful job and thus I have been job hunting for quite a while now. In the beginning of my job search I received a few offers but declined because I was so stressed and could not decide where in this profession I belong. A few years ago I was given the opportunity to take the OR course all expense paid but I was afraid so I declined. But after careful soul searching and crying and praying, I took a personality test and I was directed to a role in the OR environment.

I am not seeking employment to pay for my education and other expenses. There are a few places I have signed up with that I am waiting for a response. Everyday I search for employment for hours at a time. I really want this opportunity. I am a hard work who values this profession.

Some days are better than others, I have received a few interviews lately but the distance is too great they are 2-4hr away. I even went as far as to ask for my old job back but it not get it. So I feel discouraged because I have found an area of interest but I have no means to afford it, and I my expenses need my attention.

Thanks for the vent.