i failed =(

i took my nclex this morning and did the pvt trick went straight to cc details...i'm still hoping i'll pass when i get my official results...i am so depressed, i don't have any family here in the us, i have no one to talk to and it saddens me because everyone in my family depends on me, this was like make it or break it and i am just so hurt right now, i will keep on praying until i receive my official results...i am so heartbroken, confused and tired.....i studied hard was on kaplan...i dont know i am wishing so hard that i'll pass...it really breaks my heart that my son is so excited to see me as a future nurse he was excited for me to pass because as of now i don"t make that much, because he knew if i become a nurse i could save some money for a plane ticket back home, it really just breaks my heart, taht i wont be able to see them soon..i just hate to see the look of frustration and disappointment from my family everyone is expecting me to pass..