I've been working in an SICU in a county hospital 50 miles from my house for the last 15 months. I was practically a new grad when I started (I had only worked in Home health and outpatient dialysis). I completed an intense critical care training which was a total emotional rollercoaster.
I worked nights for a year. Super brutal. I knew it would be tough for me (I'm definitely not a night person). Sometimes it would take me 90+ minutes to get home in the morning because of traffic. Finally, in April I got a position on the PM shift - 3-11. Way way better. I feel human again. Sleeping at night. No traffic (though still about an hour each way)....
about a month ago I had an interview at a local private HMO hospital for a CVICU position. I dragged my feet since I had just started the PM shift and was getting my bearings and didn't really have such a drive anymore to look for another job like I had when I was miserable working nights. But I went to the interview anyway. And it was pretty cool. Less than a mile from home. Same shift. Same amount of hours. Way better pay.
So when they offered, knowing I didn't really have heart experience (I told them I had heart exposure - I had just begun orienting to the open hearts on my SI unit) they still wanted to hire me. Of course they expect me to do a lot of studying on my own.
So I accepted. Duh!?! Right!?!
but................
I went to give notice to my current manager. She told me I'd likelg hate the new place, they're very strict, they'll float me, it's all seniority based, my personality is more of a county type than private fancy hospital (I kinda agree), I'll get bored doing just hearts, they don't have the same possibilities of learning new disciplines since they're not a teaching hospital...... she actually worked for the same institution for a number of years before her current position.
And it gave me pause.
so here I am....2 more days at county. Already doing all my paperwork to start the new job a week from today and totally worried.
My current manager expressed how disappointed she is in my decision to leave, how she raised me, how ill never have as supportive of a manager as her..... and it's not super hard to make me feel guilty. Because she gave me a chance. Trained me in the icu. Stuck up for me when my unit didn't believe I could make it. She fought for me.
And im having serious doubts.
People have told me that the new place is very strict. Very organized. (Not a bad thing. ). Not a teaching hospital. They fire people more easily. You can't get away with the stuff we get away with at county (not necessarily a bad thing).
I mean the money and commute make so much sense. But I am sad to leave the trauma I had at county. The variety of patients. Working with residents from all disciplines. Getting so much training and education.
Having worked so hard to get some semblance of respect on my unit.
I feel like I'm more county... I'm gritty, got a potty mouth, not super great with authority .... love the teaching and demographic of a county hospital.
This is new job will make me super efficient in hearts. But will it translate? What if I want to go back to a trauma icu? Will they take me?
help!?'v
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I've been working in an SICU in a county hospital 50 miles from my house for the last 15 months. I was practically a new grad when I started (I had only worked in Home health and outpatient dialysis). I completed an intense critical care training which was a total emotional rollercoaster.
I worked nights for a year. Super brutal. I knew it would be tough for me (I'm definitely not a night person). Sometimes it would take me 90+ minutes to get home in the morning because of traffic. Finally, in April I got a position on the PM shift - 3-11. Way way better. I feel human again. Sleeping at night. No traffic (though still about an hour each way)....
about a month ago I had an interview at a local private HMO hospital for a CVICU position. I dragged my feet since I had just started the PM shift and was getting my bearings and didn't really have such a drive anymore to look for another job like I had when I was miserable working nights. But I went to the interview anyway. And it was pretty cool. Less than a mile from home. Same shift. Same amount of hours. Way better pay.
So when they offered, knowing I didn't really have heart experience (I told them I had heart exposure - I had just begun orienting to the open hearts on my SI unit) they still wanted to hire me. Of course they expect me to do a lot of studying on my own.
So I accepted. Duh!?! Right!?!
but................
I went to give notice to my current manager. She told me I'd likelg hate the new place, they're very strict, they'll float me, it's all seniority based, my personality is more of a county type than private fancy hospital (I kinda agree), I'll get bored doing just hearts, they don't have the same possibilities of learning new disciplines since they're not a teaching hospital...... she actually worked for the same institution for a number of years before her current position.
And it gave me pause.
so here I am....2 more days at county. Already doing all my paperwork to start the new job a week from today and totally worried.
My current manager expressed how disappointed she is in my decision to leave, how she raised me, how ill never have as supportive of a manager as her..... and it's not super hard to make me feel guilty. Because she gave me a chance. Trained me in the icu. Stuck up for me when my unit didn't believe I could make it. She fought for me.
And im having serious doubts.
People have told me that the new place is very strict. Very organized. (Not a bad thing. ). Not a teaching hospital. They fire people more easily. You can't get away with the stuff we get away with at county (not necessarily a bad thing).
I mean the money and commute make so much sense. But I am sad to leave the trauma I had at county. The variety of patients. Working with residents from all disciplines. Getting so much training and education.
Having worked so hard to get some semblance of respect on my unit.
I feel like I'm more county... I'm gritty, got a potty mouth, not super great with authority .... love the teaching and demographic of a county hospital.
This is new job will make me super efficient in hearts. But will it translate? What if I want to go back to a trauma icu? Will they take me?
help!?'v