Checking In

[KJE]

Formerly KEL65 here. Ok, does anyone else get strange butterflys in the stomach, a sick anxious feeling before you hit the button in the morning to see if you have to test.

I am and have been squeeky clean for three years and two months, so I don't sweat the tests. But that hit the button time, waiting to see if the screen will load green or pink...

Today was the worst. My last day is tomorrow. I was in torment, yet resigned to seeing pink, having to test....thereby prolonging the program.

It's just that three second wait to see if it's yeah or nay! That three second wait to see if my morning plans need to change. That three second wait to see if I can have another cup of coffee without fear of dilute urine. That 3-second wait to see if I will have to worry about whether I can produce enough urine.

Green today, "thank you for checking in" and carry on with your life. I leapt with joy. I have plans. My heart may burst when I finally checking to see that my account is no longer active.!!

Hang on everyone!! The end feels so good. No desire for my doc alcohol or anything else, just a strong desire to finally live my life without worrying about incidental exposure, or waiting for a color on my Android screen to tell me how I will proceed with my life today.

Your time will come everyone!!

[rn1965, ADN]

Please let us know how it goes tomorrow. I am very happy for you! Congratulations!

[catsmeow1972, BSN, RN]

Knowing one more of us is soooo close to the end makes it a tiny bit less infuriating that I got tagged today for the second time this week.

[KJE]

3 hours ago, catsmeow1972 said:

Knowing one more of us is soooo close to the end makes it a tiny bit less infuriating that I got tagged today for the second time this week.

I'm done Cat, I'm done! Get my letter today. I'll stick around here to keep with you and the others.

[KJE]

3 hours ago, rn1965 said:

Please let us know how it goes tomorrow. I am very happy for you! Congratulations!

RN 65, I'm done. Messaged my caseworker this morning and said please don't forget to hit the button tomorrow. And she said she woke up with me and my final day on her mind. Sent me almmthe completion letter. And I will be automatically inactivated in the morning.