Student feeling hopeless and needing some motivation
Hi All-
I am a nursing student and am almost finished with my 3rd semester of clinicals. I have been working at a hospital as a Patient Care Tech for almost 4 months. Tonight, someone inadvertently ruined my night and took away all my motivation to study by sharing a piece of news with me - recently the hospital where I work hired an RN to work as a Tech. They told her that if she works as a Tech for 1 year, they will "think about" hiring her as an RN. I know the job market is bad, but I didn't think it was that bad. Working as a Tech is hard. On a nightly basis, I have 10 - 15 patients, sometimes up to 30 patients if we are short-staffed. I answer all the call bells, help the patients with their ADLs, do all the vitals, do EKGs, draw up labs, and about a million other things. Some nights I don't have time to eat, drink, or pee the whole shift. I study my @$$ off for school, trying to learn as much as I can. It is hard work, but my motivation is that I know there is a prize at the end. To hear that my "prize" isn't really there is really disheartening. It's as though all my hard work is for nothing.
To make matters worse, I ended up in such a horrible mood that I drew up a lab and put the blood in the wrong colored tube. I had to go back in and re-stick the patient. I couldn't even give her a valid excuse, because this patient actually WORKS at the hospital in the SAME unit where I work! She knew I screwed up. After I stuck her the second time, I found out that I put her blood in the wrong tube AGAIN!!! After the second time, I started crying because I felt terrible and a co-worker offered to do it for me.
So not only did I learn that there are no jobs and I will have to be a tech forever, I made a total moron out of myself by not only using the wrong tubes for the blood - not once but twice. And crying at work was the icing on the cake, because now people are going to think that I can't handle things because I was crying.
What should I do? Any words of advice?
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Hi All-
I am a nursing student and am almost finished with my 3rd semester of clinicals. I have been working at a hospital as a Patient Care Tech for almost 4 months. Tonight, someone inadvertently ruined my night and took away all my motivation to study by sharing a piece of news with me - recently the hospital where I work hired an RN to work as a Tech. They told her that if she works as a Tech for 1 year, they will "think about" hiring her as an RN. I know the job market is bad, but I didn't think it was that bad. Working as a Tech is hard. On a nightly basis, I have 10 - 15 patients, sometimes up to 30 patients if we are short-staffed. I answer all the call bells, help the patients with their ADLs, do all the vitals, do EKGs, draw up labs, and about a million other things. Some nights I don't have time to eat, drink, or pee the whole shift. I study my @$$ off for school, trying to learn as much as I can. It is hard work, but my motivation is that I know there is a prize at the end. To hear that my "prize" isn't really there is really disheartening. It's as though all my hard work is for nothing.
To make matters worse, I ended up in such a horrible mood that I drew up a lab and put the blood in the wrong colored tube. I had to go back in and re-stick the patient. I couldn't even give her a valid excuse, because this patient actually WORKS at the hospital in the SAME unit where I work! She knew I screwed up. After I stuck her the second time, I found out that I put her blood in the wrong tube AGAIN!!! After the second time, I started crying because I felt terrible and a co-worker offered to do it for me.
So not only did I learn that there are no jobs and I will have to be a tech forever, I made a total moron out of myself by not only using the wrong tubes for the blood - not once but twice. And crying at work was the icing on the cake, because now people are going to think that I can't handle things because I was crying.
What should I do? Any words of advice?