What has helped you with depression?

[perfectbluebuildings, BSN, RN]

Okay, so I'm starting to see that I may have a problem with depression.

On my days off, I pretty much stay at home, watch television, try to keep the place neat'n'clean, hang out on the internet, take care of my little garden, and that's about it. It takes a LOT for me to go out and "do something" with people, even family (I live alone), and I usually find myself begging off with some lame excuse because I just can't face it. I have a lot of feelings of hating myself, feeling like there's no point to a lot of things, wishing I were different. I barely go to church anymore, either. I sleep a lot, have erratic eating habits, and am generally a hermit until the next workday comes and I get angry with myself for not getting errands or shopping that I needed to, done. If I do manage to go out and spend time with family, etc, I usually do have a pretty good time. Now when I'm at work, I can function just fine and have been told many times that I am a great nurse, people are glad when I'm working with them, I handle situations well, etc. (I don't say this to brag, just to say how different it is when I am at home from work.)

First of all, does this sound like depression to you? To me it almost just sounds like I'm lazy, or immature. Please be honest!!!

Second of all, if it does sound at all like depression, what has helped any of you in the past? Exercise; just MAKING yourself do things; medication; talking to someone; or something else?

I realize I am being very self-centered in this post and I'm sorry. I just wanted to hear some real-world experience from others who maybe have had some of the same feelings or tendencies, and what helped you. I realize life is short and I think it's too short to spend being someone you don't like or admire, or to spend avoiding everything and everyone. Thanks...

*EDIT* I should add that I've been a nurse for 5 years and been in the same job the entire time, so nothing's changed there to cause more stress or anything.

[traumaRUs, MSN, APRN]

I am sorry that you are going thru such a rough time. Unfortunately, we just don't know whether you are depressed or not. The first step is a complete physical. So, with this, I would advise you to see your physician/medical provider.

I wish you the best! Take care.