Update

[munchkins88]

Well Everyone,

It's been over a year since I posted. The year of my career as LPN was hell, I felt it was over before I even got a footing. I went through a hard termination at a hospital , for which I do take my part and errors. Looking back some of my behavior, was very reactive. In as in the end it was my choices that resulted in the decision.

That experience lead me to an identity crisis as I didn't know who I really was if I wasn't in a hospital as a nurse. Went through a nasty bought of depression/ anxiety and contemplated suicide. Recently I found out I have hypothyroidism, which could be a reason for my anxiety, which has decreased since synthroid. I still wouldn't go back and change a thing that happened in the hospital as I believe it helped shape me today.

3 jobs later, one I quit due to moral reasons and one that let go the nurses go because of funding and one I'm still at I have seemed to have a footing finally and regained my confidence. I found my niche in the community/ primary care. I love getting to know the patients that come through and seeing their progression ( I had a young patient with salmonella induced arthritis that could hardly walk using a wheelchair and is now walking without assistance!!!!).

Life has gotten alot better. I believe I found my niche and I'm looking at doing my LPN to RN bridging program as soon as I get all my hour letters from my employers.

I have learned to trust my intuition, strive for more and to not be afraid to ask for help when I am unsure of something.

So in all, hold on as much as you can and don't be afraid to fail. Sometimes failure can lead to future success. I wish the best to all nurses, especially the new nurses. I am here for you if you need someone to listen to you.

Cheers Everyone!!

[TheCommuter, BSN, RN]

Thank you for returning to post this extremely detailed update of your progress. I am pleased that you seem to have finally found your niche in nursing.

[CrunchRN, ADN, RN]

Wonderful!