Just some background, I'm an older student on my second career, in an accelerated master's program. I'm 1.5 semesters into a 4 semester program. I'm regretting it now but I did not get any long term healthcare experience prior to starting my program. As a result, I feel very inadequate and incompetent. Once in a very rare while, I'll have a good day where I'm on top of everything I need to do for my patient, even if it is just getting water/walking the patient to the bathroom. 99% of the time, however, I feel like a complete moron. I fumble over baths and gown changes, forget parts of my assessments, get the patient (and even myself) tangled up in the lines. And that's basic, "easy" stuff that anyone with 0 training could do. I haven't gotten the opportunity to do the actual nursing skills (even though I'm allowed to) and I'm nervous about when I will.
The flip side is I'm doing exceptionally well in the classes part, and it's a tough program. I'm so afraid that I'm "one of those students" who has the brains but none of the common sense that it takes to be a good nurse (or even just an adequate one). It's to the point that I'm really considering quitting school. The thing is, I love people and I love taking care of them. I'm happiest when I'm chatting with them and they're sharing about their lives and opening up to me about how they're feeling, etc. But I feel like all the compassion in the world won't help when there's a patient coding or just needing actual nursing care. I also love the actual nursing part (what little of it I've experienced) but I feel so clumsy, like I'm fumbling most of the time and that feeling of utter incompetence makes me dread clinicals.
I understand that without knowing me, it's hard to say if nursing is a good fit. But maybe someone can offer insight into characteristic of nurses they've seen who are good nurses and those who need to stay far away from actual patient care. I'd love to someday be a nurse, but I don't want to do it at the risk of my patients' safety. Thanks!
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Just some background, I'm an older student on my second career, in an accelerated master's program. I'm 1.5 semesters into a 4 semester program. I'm regretting it now but I did not get any long term healthcare experience prior to starting my program. As a result, I feel very inadequate and incompetent. Once in a very rare while, I'll have a good day where I'm on top of everything I need to do for my patient, even if it is just getting water/walking the patient to the bathroom. 99% of the time, however, I feel like a complete moron. I fumble over baths and gown changes, forget parts of my assessments, get the patient (and even myself) tangled up in the lines. And that's basic, "easy" stuff that anyone with 0 training could do. I haven't gotten the opportunity to do the actual nursing skills (even though I'm allowed to) and I'm nervous about when I will.
The flip side is I'm doing exceptionally well in the classes part, and it's a tough program. I'm so afraid that I'm "one of those students" who has the brains but none of the common sense that it takes to be a good nurse (or even just an adequate one). It's to the point that I'm really considering quitting school. The thing is, I love people and I love taking care of them. I'm happiest when I'm chatting with them and they're sharing about their lives and opening up to me about how they're feeling, etc. But I feel like all the compassion in the world won't help when there's a patient coding or just needing actual nursing care. I also love the actual nursing part (what little of it I've experienced) but I feel so clumsy, like I'm fumbling most of the time and that feeling of utter incompetence makes me dread clinicals.
I understand that without knowing me, it's hard to say if nursing is a good fit. But maybe someone can offer insight into characteristic of nurses they've seen who are good nurses and those who need to stay far away from actual patient care. I'd love to someday be a nurse, but I don't want to do it at the risk of my patients' safety. Thanks!