5th time failure

Today I took the NCLEX RN for the 5th time and failed.. Words can't really express how I'm feeling right now , just total shock, disbelief and total sadness because I felt like I gave everything I had into studying for this test.. The first time I took the test I failed with 265, second time 75, third time 211, fourth time 220 and now the fifth time 265.. I felt confident the whole way through the test and kept telling myself that I was going to pass and that today was my day.. Obviously it wasn't... I know from reading these treads that a lot of people have been in my same position, and I know that my time will come and I will pass, I just wish it was today. I have used Exam Cram among other books and I also did Kaplan's program online where I logged in for a week for a web cam classroom. I also did all the questions in the Qbank getting ranging from 60-75%, and I did all the question trainers ranging from 50s - 70s.. On the readiness test I got a 67% which my teacher said I had a 97% chance of passing NCLEX (I guess she was wrong)..This is the 2nd time I did the Kaplan review course.. I'm at a loss.. I don't know what else to do.. I tried my hardess and still failed, even took a xanax before to calm my nerves! Any insight would be helpful, any tips, anything at all.. I just want to pass this test and start my career and my life. I prayed and I went in feeling confident but still came out disappointed like every other time.. Please help!! I don't know what else to do...