SICK of HESI!!!

Ok, I am 34 years old. I started pursuing my dream of nursing at age 30-2006 and began taking all my pre-req's. i was accepted into Nursing program in 2009, and just completed in December(2010). It was hard, and I definately had to neglect my family at times to get through this, but my husband and I talked to them about it. I make good grades. A's and B's-A's my last semester complete with letters of recommendations and an internal interview by referral from an existing RN in the hospital I did my capstone at but have to accept an 'F' now until I pass HESI.

So WHY can I not pass the HESI?!!! I passed the entrance, the mid-term and now what is going on? I study Saunder's, the 4,000 NCLEX ?'s, did the evolve HESI LIVE review we paid for at school and I can not pass this dang thing! I have tried 3 times. Getting as close as 12 points from the goal of 850. Now, I must complete all the case studies (again). I obviously need a different study method. I get nervous, and suspect every ? of being a trick and don't select obvious choices many times because of that. I am so depressed. I can't sleep, I cry at the drop of a hat, my skin has freaked out, I just don't know what to do. It's just not fair I have to take an 'F' in a class I earned an 'A' in and cannot be considered a graduate until I pass an outside vendor's 'predictor' test. I lost out on a job position in telemetry because of this, and now can't get an internship for several months because they have all begun. We have 5 children and have suffered through my years in school with one income and I just don't know what to do. This weight is so hard to bear and I am so stressed I can't even focus to study. I try and just don't absorb. Please someone give me some insight! Thanks:crying2: