NurseGee2016

dont be nervous about simulation; it's easy and its more like a review of nursing school.

Hi, I am actually in the same situation. Just I don't have another job offer. I feel so miserable and I've been wanting to quit. They first told me I was going to have days shift on my first day on the floor. Then at the end of shift my manager told me she needs me at night. Once I switched to nights, I was paired up with a preceptor who just doesnt let me do anything or explain anything to me. I've tried talking to the preceptor, my Starn Instuctor and manager to switch preceptor but they just tell me there's no one else to precept. I am on my own next week and I haven't even had full pt assignment. I am just not happy at all with my unit, night time is extermely understaffed and there's no team whatssoever. I am ready to just quit but I'm afraid of the payback.

Thank you so much for the advice. I really do appreciate it. I honestly am trying very hard to be positive. But my problem is I am sensitive and i am a hands on person. Unfortunately, my preceptor likes to be control and finish all his tasks as soon as possible. I know its nothing personal, I just wish he understood that I am new and i cant be as fast as him. After bringing up my concern about my training to my manager, I really thought she was going to change my preceptor instead she said "she doesn't have anybody else to train me". And I jist couldn't believe it.

Hi, I am new RN grad and I just started working about a month ago on a med/surge floor. I was hired into new grad training program for days. Which included 6 weeks of simulation/didactic and 6 weeks preceptorship. I was a bit unsure of going through this whole thing because I remember through my clinicals nurses told me when you start as a new grad they give you 12 weeks of preceptorship and the pay is also half of what we get paid here in Florida. Not only that, by week 2 of preceptorship I was "excepted to have full assignment!" So then I called a friend of mine that went through this program and she said it was awesome, so I listened and took the offer. On my first day on the floor my manager came up to me and said she needs me on nights and I agreed. I trained for 2 weeks on days and I loved it, my preceptor and I "clicked" she explained everything and let me do everything. the charge nurse was such a sweetheart and helps the nurses out so much and I never saw her upset. There were nurses who I didn't introduced myself to, knew i was new and would ask me if I was alright and If I needed any help. Even though I was overwhelmed with everything I had support and I had a great preceptor which made me feel at ease. Once I transitioned to nights, my life became miserable. MY night preceptor is horrible. From the first night I explained to him that I was expected to have full assignment and wanted to do as much as I wanted because I only had 4 wks left. And he said ok but didnt let me have not one pt. The next night we had a crazy night so much things were left undone from day and it was given to us. My preceptor was running back forth without explaining anything to me and didn't acknowledged me at all, he had called two doctors, tried to start an IV and didn't even tell me. I literally went looking for him and found him starting an IV. after the madness calmed down I pulled him aside and told him again that I need to do most of the work. He ended just giving me 3 pts and disappeared on me, i became so upset because when comparing to my day preceptor she would never disapparead on me she would either be next to me or she would wait outside and recheck all my noted and documentation. I automatically started to shut down, I had no one to talk to on the floor. There is less nurses on nights and they are all in their little corner texting. I felt alone. I called the instructor thats from this new grad program who follows up with me & preceptor every other week to see how im doing. I explained to her my situation and I am overwhelmed and I feel like I am not progressing, I feel alone I feel like it is not a Team at night, I also explained to her how I feel like im missing out on so many things i need to be learning because my preceptor rushes everything and doesn't really include me. All my instructor said to me was "talk to him again, you will be working with him and you do not want to burn any bridges", I told her I already did TWICE. But i listened and the following week I spoke to him again and told him I only have 3 wks left and I want every pt and with u on my side so u can catch my mistakes and if any questions I have I can ask u right away.he said ok and after a few hours he said i was falling behind on my charting so he grabbed a computer and started charting on most of the pt then we received a new admission and he took it and didn't even tell me, he even started blood, I became so upset because he didn't even tell me or gave me the chance i went to the bathroom and I started crying and felt horrible. The following week he gave me less pt and i was back to 3 i didn't want to argue so i took it and i took my sweet time because at nights its much slower for me so i did a full head to toe on all my pt and even took the time to speak to a pt who was upset and was crying, i come out and my precptor tells me I took to much time. that I talk to much with my pts and how will i survive once i have 6-7 pts. I wpoke to my manager and requested to be changed and she said no they are so short on nurses and they barely have precpetors at night. I also asked to be switched to the other night team because we have to work every other weekend and Ive been schedule to work with this preceptor for the next two years and my manager also told me no. I signed a contract a 2 yr contract and if i quit I will have to pay back 10k back, I am stuck in between a rock and a hard situation. I cry every day and everytime i leave work. I feel so depressed, my days off fly and I am not able to do anything because i am always so tired I feel so miserable. I do not know what to do, I worked so hard and my nursing school was so hard and I still cant believe i made it. and IT kills me to even think of quitting. I love nursing I love talking to patients and I love to make them feel better. Ive always loved working with people but right now im starting to hate it. I hate rushing things and all this paperwork. I even considered to go back to school to get my masters and study nursing informatics but with this terible depression I feel like I wont even have time to do my course work. I cant go to gym or cook which I used to love doing. I also dont want to quit because I help my mom pay bills and I help her with her medications and I also dont want to let her down, shes so proud of me. But I honestly feel so sad I cant stop crying. I wish I just had a better team or coworker or at least better training. can someone help me on what should i do? P.S Im sorry for the loonggg post