I work in a family medicine clinic and I like my job. I room patients, give steroid and pain injections, do inmunizations, draw blood, run urine tests, strep tests, set up for and observe procedures. I'm in my RN year of my ADN and I'll be sad to leave. But it it wasn't easy to start. It's my first Nursing job and it was a huge learning curve. Just keep trying.
Get your textbooks early if you can. Just browse them, and read what interests you. Every program starts at a different point so your program content might be different than others. I'd also recommend getting a head start on memorizing lab values, like the metabolic panel. You won't know what they mean, but you'll need to memorize these eventually, so get started now if you have the time. If you get this stuff rolling around in your brain it'll help put the pieces together when they actually go over the content in class. https://allnurses.com/nclex-discussion-forum/best-most-reliable-905358.html Mostly you should relax and get all of your stuff organized. Make a quiet space to study and get some supplies to keep all your stuff together.