Asking4help

Hello, I am a nurse in Virginia. I have been in va HPMP for almost 4 years. I tried to find a way I could make a new topic post, but I couldn't find out how. I have been clean and a member of a 12 step fellowship for almost 4 years. I went back to work in my field and I am rehireable at one of the hospitals I worked for in the past. I have been interviewing for many jobs and have been turned down for many. I am getting more depressed daily and I am hurting deeply. I have done Mt part for so long and I don't seem to be getting any offers for jobs even though I have been back to woek since I started HPMP. I entered recovery because I wanted to change , I go to meetings often and sponsor other women. I have made many difficult choices to maintain my recovery, and I am currently suffering the loss of a relationship that I am choosing to leave in order to take care of myself. I feel like I am out of options. No matter how honest I am about my past and how hard I try, I am unable to find employment. I am in desperate need of experience, strength ,and hope.