Get a LTC job to start off. Should be easy to find and get hired. Get your experience and then maybe get into rehab or hosp. I really don't think it's safe for you, your license, or the patient until you get some experience. Do you know how to change or apply a wound vac? Do you know how to do lab draws? Do you know how to complete a sterile dressing changes for a picc line? etc.......Hang in there and keep praying. You'll make it. Just stop worrying about the future and concentrate on the next step you need to take today.