Thanks for your response and perspective. I CAN write, hold things, and do most everything I normally do (I just washed the dishes!) but there is an intermittent, underlying dull pain and the movement in one of my fingers is slightly limited due to the swelling which also comes and goes. I was mimicking the movements of drawing up a syringe using a pen and I'm about 99% good. I don't think I'd hurt anyone or myself if it was real life. I suppose it's the idea that something is wrong with me at a time when I need to be in tiptop shape. I am older and had early graying of my hair starting in my 20's, so now I am fully gray and worry about people's perceptions, especially at this physical with an unknown doctor. At my regular physical last December, my doc said I was perfectly healthy and told me to see her in a year. I think I'm going to go take a bath and try to relax!