I understand what you are saying completely. I graduated with my RN last summer but was working as a LPN PRN for about a year before that and I work the night shift. First of all, I think nursing just isn't for me, but working night shift has made it even worse. My boyfriend and I are expecting our first child together and I have a 6 year old daughter from a previous relationship. Like your husband, my boyfriend works days and we have different days off, so I never get to see him. I hardly get to see my daughter either. Since I'm the new nurse at my small town's hospital, I get the pleasure of working the weekend graveyards and will probably be stuck working that shift until one of the seasoned nurses decides to retire (which all of them are still far from retiring.) I hate it. My days off, my daughter is in school and my boyfriend is at work. Then on their days off from school and work, I have to sleep to be ready for my night shift. Its just plain depressing. Since I live in a small town there aren't really any options for employment other then the hospital where I work. I'm tired of not having a normal life and yes I too have cried multiple times because of job. I think I have a very good idea of how you are feeling and I just want you to know you aren't alone. I'm right here with you.