dmarsan14

Hello there: I have been there too and I understand what are you going through right now. The good news are that you aren't alone and that this has a treatment. Bad news is that you need to be patient because the treatment isn't magic, it requires weeks in your blood in order to work. First I agree that you need to seek the help of a psychiatrist. For me, I needed to take several medications until I found the right one that worked for me. This is the problem with antidepressants: what works for me it might no work for you. With your doctor, you can work to find the right med or the right combo of meds that will work for you. DO NOT QUIT YOUR JOB!!! as hard as is for you, is the only thing that is keeping you for insanity. You can ask to change to a less stressful floor or change to a part time job while you get yourself back on track. Your job offers a way to keep your mind out of the anxiety/depression, plus it will give you some cash to afford doctor and meds. Look for some therapist in your area that works with cognitive-behavioral therapy. Along with the meds it will help you and your family to get through this difficult moment. It worked for me and research shows that is really effective. Connect with your spiritual self through praying, yoga, meditation. It was hard for me to do yoga during my great moments of depression, the only I could do was praying. Later when you start to feel better, you can start yoga or meditation. Even going for a walk for 30 mins a day is really beneficial. I know it is really hard to push yourself out of the bed, but repeat to yourself that YES you can do it, you can get through this. I also did some postcards with positive messages that I read in moments of panic attacks or desperation. Things like: I have been through panic attacks before, and I know this sensations are going to pass. Make several of this card and carry them with you. I still keep mine in my wallet just in case. They are with me wherever I go. Please tell your family or real close friend(s) what is going on with you. You may need for someone to stay with you during your critical moments. You might need a hand to hold or a shoulder to cry on. Also they can help you to get you out of bed and oblige you to "perform". I know it is hard but it is the only thing is going to help you. You need to get your mind distracted and focus on other things rather that focus on your feelings or sensations. Try to find the right help, and I know you will get through this. It is hard, it is ugly but YOU CAN DO IT!!!

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